So overtime I have been having this inferiority complex thing really eating me. I would either want to be like sister A, sing like Sister B or dress like sister C.
To even think of it, it affected the way I thought God thinks about me.
Most times I had this feeling that God doesn't love me enough.

Some family members and friends contributed to this, they will either tell me my body type isn't ok, or I am too busty or too short, or too this or that.
I never appreciated my body type, I like dressing to cover my whole body and I had people criticize me about my dressing.
I remember one of the days I had ministration some where and one of my church member told me I over dressed being that I covered my body and cleavages.
She never knew I was battling with low self esteem and that really added to my moodiness. I immediately didn't feel like ministering again, not until one of my church member this time around a guy told me I looked so good on my outfit, unknown to him what the first girl said.
I smiled and that was when I gained my morale.

Seriously I was living at the mercy of peoples validation and it crept so bad into my spiritual life that I would have to tell God I am sorry a hundred times over something He must have forgiven me of.
I felt God loved me based on what I could do, unaware of the passage that said while we were yet sinners Christ died for us.

My testimony is that i have found the love of Christ, and all of that has died off.
So far my dressing pleases Abba I am good to go, so far my What ever I do pleases Abba then I have no time battling with peoples opinion.
I now see myself in the lens of Abba,
Yes I now see myself in the light of Abba;
I now see my self the way Abba sees me and I pray as the day passes by He helps me appreciate His love for me the more.

Ps:- Appreciate yourself because you are unique. Don't let anyone validate you. See yourself in the lens of your creator.
I love you but God loves you most.

I remain

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