Now, I understand where my insatiable quest for knowledge stems from. You wanted it so badly, you sent the request to the universe. The universe must have transferred the desire to my mom, and then, I got it from her blood. To fulfill it. Your wish. Your desire.
I am not stopping, no. Every day, it feels as though I can't get enough. I am still digging, searching, discovering more and more. It doesn't look as though I am going to end it soon.
May my grandmother's soul rest in peace
How much did you want to know? I wish the universe can communicate that too. It's becoming an obsession. I am addicted. Yet, fear grips me when I find something new. An understanding. A reason why we act the way we do. An understanding of why the world works the way it does.
My thinking is different. I can't even say it out loud because the rest of the folks will not understand me. Grandma, what did you do?
You said you wanted to go through education, learn to read and write. Be knowledgeable. And mum wanted the same thing too. You both passed the insatiable need to me, and it became my responsibility to see that your dreams come true.
I still remember the rest of the things we talked about. The ones about marriage, family, and the darkest dungeon of life. No, I haven't forgotten.
Yes, I remember the promise I made to you too. I couldn't keep it. I thought I had time. I forgot time isn't for anyone to predict its duration. We can only use the one we have. Wisely, of course. I want you to know that even though I couldn't keep it to you. I did it to another grandmother. I know this isn't done to you directly, I am hoping the universe will take it as an appease for your sake.
I won't say I didn't have enough time to get to know you because I'll be lying. I had it. I wasted it. I am sorry. I apologize for each ad every one of us who has hurt you in this life by our actions. We have learned our lessons. We will make amends. I promise.
I pray as you sojourn to the land of the unknown, you will find peace, and spread it to us over here. May your soul rest in perfect peace.