My son was rolled in a gurney out from the ward toward the ambulance. The last thing I remembered was the doctor and nurses holding me and everything went blur. I was at the hospital for four days and couldn't go to work.
I went back to the bank the next week only to receive a sacking letter. All attempt to explain my condition felt on deaf ears. I lost my husband, my job and my only child. In the twinkle of eyes, I was in my parent and left with nothing. Twice I contemplated suicide but failed.
A soft tap took me from memory lane.
I turned and favour my friend was sitting beside me. Favour had been my best friend from secondary school, we parted after she got married and left for Abuja with her husband.
I received a call from your parent that you contemplated suicide, I didn't believe it and I took the first flight here to see things for myself. I've sat down here for almost an hour but you didn't notice me, what really happened? What about David and your baby? Look at you, you are a shadow of yourself, favour said calmly.
Why? Favour Why?? I sobbed.
What happened? Favour asked and petted my back.
Without taking a breath, I blurted everything to favour.
Favour listened quietly and when I concluded, she shook her head sadly.
We forsake peace because we refuse to take things to God in prayer, favour began.
You got married, did you invite God into your marriage? Your husband started misbehaving and you went online to ask for advice? You wasted your money to buy data to get useless advice when you could have freely gone on your knee and asked God to advice you.
You aren't the first married female banker, they are many married female bankers and most of them have many children and were working in higher rank and were far more busy at work than you but their homes are not broken so why was yours different, it simply because you didn't involve God. You didn't want to lose your home to a maid, why didn't you leave the fight to God? You tried fighting for yourself and that's why you lost for son.
Everything you went through were needless pains, you wouldn't have had them if only you prayed. You neglected God and you were forfeited, favour blurted.
It is a waste to cry over split milk but in your case, your milk isn't split on a dirty ground, you can pack them if you wish but is only through prayer. Let's pray, favour begged and held my hand lovingly.
I got down from the bed and kneeling beside my bed, I poured out my heart to God with tears rolling down my cheeks.
The next day I went back to church, it's been like centuries I attended church.
I prayed earnestly and begged God to help me recover all I lost.
I was on my way back home from church when I received a call from central bank DPO telling me to come over.
I rushed back home, changed into something presentable and went to the bank. All I heard was "resume work tomorrow" every other thing the DPO said didn't enter my ear.
I got my work back and with my parent help, I buried my son in pain. A month at the bank, David came to deposit money, he was very ashamed when he saw me and begged to have a word with me, I told him to wait until the closure of work, he did and at the closure of work, I purposely shunned him and went back home.
For three days, David begged and asked about his son and I frustrated and snubbed him even through I was dying to hear him out. On the forth day, I couldn't take it any longer, I broke down and sobbed on him and told him what happened to David (jnr). David cried and begged me for forgiveness.
To cut the story short, I forgave David and we remarried. I later gave birth to two handsome boys.
Dear readers,
Don't make the same mistake she made.
You woke up this morning, did you bother to pray about the day?
You got a job, did you give it to God to control?
You are frustrated, did you ask God for advice or you ran to friends?
You are heartbroken, did you ask God to mend you?
You have a problem? Did you run to God?
You are sick, did you ask God to heal you?
They are so many pains that isn't for us, Needless pains and burdens we bear simply because when life smiles at us, we forget God and feel we are complete without him.
Just take things to God in prayer.