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Hope is the essence of life. Many of us could not live a life of peace without having hope deep inside our hearts. Life is unpredictable, hard and quite notorious at times. Things go out of hand and beyond of our control many times. Hope helps us to keep the fight on and improves better chances of making our lives better.
Hopelessness on the other hand, is a powerful emotion that often contributes to a dark or low mood and may adversely affect the way one perceives themselves, other individuals, personal circumstances, and even the world. Often, hopelessness can have a very significant influence on human behavior, as it may reflect an individual's negative view of the future. The emotion is often associated with a lack of inspiration as well as feelings of powerlessness, helplessness, abandonment, captivity, oppression and isolation. Numerous studies indicate that hopelessness is closely linked to poor mental, emotional and physical health.
And I, on another hand, I am right here, alone with my thoughts, screaming until I realize no one can hear me. Can someone just notice me and my pain? No one cares to help me and all I do is fall deeper into the darkness. And oh, I seem to have forgotten, I am all alone in this island with no water, no food, nothing at all! I've tried so hard to get out but it always pulls me right back. Staring at a clock waiting to be set free. Pulling down my sleeves to hide the scars I acquired (I don't even know how). Hiding my tears to show that I am strong.
I am drowning in almost-absolute helplessness. The way I saw the world became different. I started to think of the things I could have done differently. Darkness engulfed my mind and my thinking. I started to have suicidal thoughts! My view of everything became polarized and blank and my heart was devoid of any hope of getting out of the situation. I slowly began to succumb to the voice of death due to my hopeless state.
But there always is a point in everyone's lives to turn the page and step into the light; to let their future take its course; let it run free without fear or force. Tiny rays of hope shone in my heart and my desire to live; my desire to get out of this darkness; my desire for something good and believing it will happen despite what my current situation looked like took speed and overshadowed every ounce of hopelessness in my heart.