Did you know that I am having an anxieties again? My last breakdown was last april. It was holy week that time and i know i shared it here too. For me my experience on my last breakdown was the worst breakdown that i experienced in my whole life. It was tough, it was hard but i can manage to stand up and look forward to brighter side of life again and again.
Month of may is my birth month. I started the month with full of hope and positivity. I started to plan on how to start our dreams. I started to think about my plan B's. I motivate myself and encourage myself to be better and better each day. Month of may turns a very light month for me and you know i was like a new person on that month. I forgot my breakdown and anxieties because dreaming on our future invades my mind. Though there are a little anxiety but those anxiety that i experience that month is a kind of anxiety that push me to dream more.
And here comes the month of june. Like what i posted on noise.cash, i am starting to save for my husband's birthday this july. I don't have any overthinking and until just rest day of my husband my anxieties started again. At this moment i can really control it, i know i'm not having a breakdown because i already know my body. I know at some point when my anxieties hits me very hard i can't control my thoughts and my mind anymore resulting a few effects on my health. Now i started feel constant headache again, a jaw pain and insomnia because of overthinking.
What's the reason of my anxiety again? The same reason why i'm having an anxiety everytime. I don't want to share the full details about it because if you are my readers and also my virtual friends you will you it already.
Like what i said before nasa punta kami ng buhay namin na hindi talaga namin alam kung saan kami lulugar. Even if we want to start on our own we can't because we are not selfish. Maybe you have an idea what my anxieties is all about.
For now even if i am thinking about it i can still manage to control it by diverting my mind into something. Now i am busy creating my affiliate marketing page start to do if a late by shopee. I know starting this kind of thing is not that easy but for me i want to give it a try because after all i will not going to invest any money on it. Since we have a wi-fi here why not to try different opportunities online as long as it's legal. I know i will something about it tho that i can use on the future. We can never tell , maybe.
I know I am not the only one experienced anxieties here. I know it's really awkward when I share some advice when you all knew that I am having a breakdown but like what I said. Let's occupied our mind with positive vibes and also pray ❤️