You could say I had a brain disease or my brain cells were malfunctioning. As a young child, I grew up seeing everything in trousers (men) as potential predators always waiting for their prey to devour. I grew up loathing men for just no good reason. And some people thought I had a bad experience with men or a guy in my life. Some even went as far as thinking I had a terrible breakup experience; speak of someone that has never dated in her entire life lol. I saw myself becoming vigilant and up for war and self-defense whenever the word GUY is mentioned. It was as if I was fighting a battle that was never mine. Like I was hating on guys on other people's behalf, like I was taking the bad experiences fellow girls like me had with guys as mine and trying to walk in their shoes, defend them and act accordingly around dudes. At some point, I made life miserable for some guys that approached me or came my way. I knew this wasn't right but I couldn't stop either way.
I was always being too hard on guys and I wasn't even sorry about it. It felt like I was never gonna forgive them for the heartaches and pains some of them caused some ladies and girls that had become a victim of their unjust treatment or had become their prey.
I took upon myself the mission of causing men a measure of the pains they cause others and most ladies. To me, they were devils that needed to be taken down at all costs.
I was this crazy, I never thought of the consequences of all my actions, I mean innocent people could become victims of this too if I let it continue, or so I thought.
I didn't have to be so hard on guys for no good reason.
I have never been hurt by them or caused any pain so why was I becoming too outrageously defensive and hard on them?
Control Zee (Ctrl Z)
Before I knew it, I woke up to reality. I met a few nice friends who help reset my brain and my thought about guys. They didn't brainwash me into believing what wasn't true. Rather they lived out what they professed and I saw some level of sincerity in their speech, action, and mode of conduct.
As time went on, I became a little bit more accommodating and was open to a change. It wasn't very easy for sure. I mean you don't just expect me to reset my brain overnight. I needed a gradual process because after all, this is something I grew up with so I needed some time for the chip in my brain to be detached or terminated.
With time I was able to put myself back in order and view things from a whole new level and perspective.
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6 September 2022
