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I am not one to idolize anyone, especially not when it comes to celebrities.
But, people who know me in real life, and even some who know me here, will know that I absolutely LOVE the Foo Fighters. They're my all time favorite band, and I've seen them in concert 8 times. During 7 of those, their drummer was Taylor Hawkins.
And yet, I never expected the news I've read, only minutes ago, to hit me this hard.

Taylor Hawkins of the Foo Fighters has died

Source

Apparently hours before they were supposed to play at a festival in Colombia...
What??? I'm too tired now, and too shocked but I'm sure I'll have questions later.
If they'll be answered is another.

That's what I read in the Twitter feed when I came there to retweet someone else's Tweet. I don't know the details, it doesn't say, and it doesn't really matter.
What matters is that someone, who I've seen live quite a few times, and who was part of the one band I could listen to over, and over, and over again, without ever getting bored, has died. Still way too young in my opinion. It's no use to speculate how and why. Although some things came to mind. A little while ago, the Foo Fighters cancelled a show because a band member (still unknown who, to the public) was rushed to the hospital. Was it Taylor? The 'how and why' also comes to mind. But yeah, useless to start speculating about that too. Not sure we'll ever know. And it doesn't matter...

The Foo Fighters, a band that rose from the ashes of Nirvana after Kurt Cobain's death, and filled shoes no one (at the time) thought they could ever fill, has lost their friend, their partner, and one of the best damn drummers the world has ever seen (my opinion, let me have it).

My thoughts go out to his family, and his friends. My thoughts then landed on Dave Grohl, who had gone through the loss of his friend, Kurt Cobain while still in Nirvana. And with that loss, also the loss of the band altogether. And now the loss of yet another friend, and HUGE part of the Foo Fighter family...
I can't even imagine.

My thoughts

These guys have helped me through some of the toughest times in my life.
They cheered me up when I was down. Not just with their music but also because they are damn funny.
They've helped me realize (with some of their songs) that some of my relationships just didn't work.
They've even helped me break up with someone that held me back for a long, long time.
Their music was there through my darkest days, and they were there through my best days.
Their music was sung loudly in the car, by all of the family. If anyone knows how much I loved that music, it is my children because they had to listen to it over, and over again.
Their concerts are truly the BEST live performances I've ever seen, and I could see them live over and over again, they never, ever disappointed, and always stayed much longer than any other band I've ever seen. Not the usual 2 hours, or less, but 2 hours 20 minutes, or more even. Just because they have so many songs they still wanted to play.
I mean: when have you ever heard of the singer of a band breaking his leg after a jump/fall off the stage, and still keep going till the end? I'm waiting! Yeah, I thought so...

They always had fun on stage, and you could feel it!

Man, the more I write, the more I feel like it's an ending. Not just the end of someone's life. His family...He has young children. How will the Foo Fighters family ever be the same without him?
Does it matter? To his loved ones it does. To me it does.
To thousands, many thousands of fans, it does.

I don't even understand why my heart is pounding, and why I'm in quite the shock here. I didn't know the man in person. He wasn't a friend. And yeah, it's not something I won't get over any time soon. However, his death also brings the death of an era of many great hours in which I enjoyed their music. Now, there will still be the music but not without the thought that he will never play it again... Things have changed. Wow. I really never would have thought that this would affect me the way it does...

I will stop here now. Thank you for listening to the ramblings of a Foo Fighters fan.