Hiveghana ask me to be honest and tell my life story, okay get ready to read about my love life.
My love story.
I grew up in a family where we were trained to give our all when it comes to relationship.
I meet this young guy when i was 22yrs and he was just a bus driver in a pure water company so you can imagine how rich he was.
This guy was living with his aunt and he was doing most of the house chores which was hectic for him, he have to wake up every 4:am to wash dishes and prepare aunts children for school.
Mind you he was 28yrs so he wasnt a boy but a grown up man, i feel in love with him and decided to help him, he acted like am the only person that means a lot to him.
After school i got a job and was working and earning good money then, i also had some side hustles that fetch more money for me.
Since both of us has professed love to each i thought that it wont be a bad idea to help him , and for us to know ourselves better he needs to leave his aunt's house.
So i saved money and rented and apartment for him, i furnished the apartment and made it comfortable for him, I went as far as getting new clothes for him and he started looking like a handsome guy.
All this while he was acting like am all he was thinking about, he promised never to disappoint me but the later of my story will shock you.
The betrayal hurt so much.
I felt darkness while it was still daytime.
After sometimes he started acting funny, picking fight over little or nothing, i never know he has started dating another lady.
One day he picked a fight with me and i decided to give him some days, but you can't imagine what happened.
One Sunday morning, i decided to come reconcile with him but what i saw left me speechless, i knocked and a pregnant young lady opened the door.
Remember thats the house i rented for him with my hard earned money.
I asked her who she is, she responded and told that shes hes wife and as i can see shes carrying his child, i asked to see him the young lady locked me out.
I waited for hours before he came back and officially informed me that its over between us, that i should tell him how much i spent and he will pay me with interest.
I have never been betrayed in such manner all my life, i left to me house and i cried all night, i didn't know what i did to deserve such treatment.
After few years i thought i had healed and i made a second attempt, that became the worst of it, i can't even relate it because that has left me confused, stucked and devastated.
My vow.
I vowed not to trust any man again in my life, not to love any man, i decided to live in pretense when it comes to love life.
My challenge.
Now it has become a struggle, a strong one at that, i see every man as a scam, even if they are honest ones I don't believe them.
Sometimes i think about it because i can't remain this way but at the same time i don't see myself loving or trusting any man, this is my struggle that has been eating me up for a while.
How can i overcome that fear?, how can i build or trust someone anymore?
Any suggestion is much appreciated.