As kids, we see the supposed freedom we thought the adults were enjoying and often yearn for adulthood; there is always this eagerness to break free from the seeming limitations of childhood and make our own decisions because somewhere in our small minds we usually conclude that they are living their best lives.
But life has a way of changing our perspectives and making us see things differently. Now, as an adult, more often than not, I find myself wanting and yearning for the simplicity of childhood. I would rather stay at home, avoiding the pressures of adult life and endless billing and responsibilities, and wish someone would make decisions for me. I was raised by strict parents, mostly my dad.
Who at that time felt like he was stealing my freedom away from me. I didn't have the privilege to play very well like other kids. My dad didn't allow us to mingle with other kids; he would get us the best toys and whatever we asked for as long as we were going to be indoors all through.
I was envious of other kids whose parents gave them more freedom and wished to be an adult so that I could get to make all the decisions I wanted without restriction.
There was a time my classmates after secondary school organized a party. I so much wanted to attend, but I could not dare tell my dad because I knew he would not consent to it, so I just comforted myself with "I will soon enter the university, and everything will change.
Now as an adult, I have all the freedom I have always wanted to make my own choices. This same adulthood I so much longed for and looked forward to is stressing me out; I do not want it anymore. I want to go back to the days when I had no bills to pay.
I want to go back to the days when I had no financial obligations to meet. I want to go back to the days when I had no worries about where the next money would come from, as I had all my needs met and all my bills settled. I want to go back to the days when I had no need to worry about a thing.
As good as adulthood is, it is filled with a lot of responsibilities that you have to rise up to. Life does not hand you a trophy because you grew up. Everything in this adulthood has to be worked for. There were things I did as a child and could get away with that I cannot even conceive of repeating as an adult.
As a child, you could be careless about your life, and someone somewhere would ensure that nothing goes wrong, regardless of your carelessness. However, as an adult, the outcome of your life is directly proportional to the quality of choices available to you and the decisions you make.
Life as a child is more fun-filled, however life as an adult is more responsibility-filled. Being a child is such a blessing, a blessing no child should run away from.
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