Life sometimes feels meaningless and empty, not that being alive is a course but, the kind of condition that life throws at all sometimes makes it feels like everything is vanity upon vanity. Before now, during my childhood stage. I often have this concept that there will be a specific time where everything around me will be 100% complete, you know, me being a child then.
I am often stopped from doing some particular things simply because I am a younger person. I thought that there was so many freedom and stress free in adult age, so I became eager and very passionate about adulthood. In those moments I was like when will all these be over so that I will also be allowed to move freely and do things in my own way.
Now being an adult person... With what I had experience and seen already, there is no need to think that everything can be gotten 100% complete anymore. Life has its own way of treating everyone and it usually change the movement of everything into different destination, every individuals has their stories of how life throws temptation and difficulties, happiness and good lucks into their ways, and this is not something that any one can tell how or when it's going to hit in. There are some points in life where everything will look complicated, where going back may feel like a dead sentence, remaining in the same spot will also feel annoying then moving forward will seem like an empty destination.
I was asking myself a question one certain time and I was also busy imagining what the answer might be, I was asking myself "what could be the main reason why this world is so unpredictable?" I was very busy calculating the stress and struggle that filled childhood stage down to adulthood, imagining the stress also during the old age and lastly Death comes to take away life. Once life is no more, every other things will be meaningless. It will somehow look alike with one popular song that says soldier go, soldier come, Barack still remain.
After all the thinkings, i told my self that nothing lasts forever. There is no good reason why I should be worrying too much about life... I do have bad times that usually make me reason one kind but, my spirit comes down immediately I recalls that life is a mystery and life can change at any time, any moments. So that gives me the courage of believing that nothing is permanent, again... Life has a lot to do with vanity upon vanity.
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