i have been procrastinating a lot lately, there are things I need to get done as part of my personal resolutions this year and while I'm trying my best to keep up , at some point I feel weak, demotivated and non chalant about it, most times it's not that we don't know what to do and how to do it but actually doing it is a major challenge, it's not like people just love to procrastinate things or that they don't know why it matters, the reason it look like we slag in our activities towards our goals is low internal Energies.
I use to say all kind of things like motivating and speaking up about getting things done till this wave of weakness hit me, I haven't done what I'm suppose to be doing daily for two weeks now, not that I forget as a matter of fact it's always in my head every single night and day to do it, it's easier to say than to do, what I found out is that my internal energy is very low, it's a different ball game when you have someone on the side once in a while bringing that nudge, pushing you, bringing a reminder saying something to propel you to think and make necessary actions
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it's hard when you're your only cheer leader, self motivated, when you're the only one at a cross road lost in your own thoughts with no one to cheer you up, the weight of the vision is on you alone and alone to bear, you will feel it, that weakness that urge to let go, that nothingness, to turn back and give up in what you've been doing all along, this is so because your internal Energy has dropped down to zero.
it is at this point you realise that life is a personal race, nobody really care what you do however you do it, no body care about your hidden struggles, pains, tears, frustration, really no body cares and very few ever wants to know, but then should you ever make it across the finish line they all break loose shouting congratulations,
know this if you fail they will mock you if you succeed they celebrate with you in both cases no one care how you got to where you're, if you get the desired outcome, this is why life is personal, you came here a lone and so you will go alone, you have to get up bear your cross alone without blame or feeling pitied gear up and brace yourself, it's upto you whatever results you want to see.
know this that no body owes you anything, nobody is to be blame for whatever outcome you get out of life not even your own parents, I was saying this to a group of student few months a go, the highest anybody has done is to offer you education now the rest is upto you how ever you choose and whatever decision you make out of this opportunity is yours to take.
there are no glory without guts, there are no victories without a fight, there's never overcoming if you are not daring enough, life is truly person whether you succeed or fail depends on you, don't at the end of the day look for who to blame or whatever circumstances you think is responsible for your down fall, you've got to motivate yourself, be your biggest Fan, have a reason to keep going think of the reason you started in the first place, know that if you fail they will laugh at you but if you succeed they will celebrate with you most importantly your name will be out there inspiring others too.
you have to propel your internal energy to keep going despite the odds against you, cheer yourself up, never settle where you are, when there are still more to achieve, more things to do, more victories to claim, get up and get going.
