So i returned to owerri a few days ago only for me to find just a few people in the hostel where i stay. I was a little bit surprised though, i mean its almost the end of January and people are not here as they used to be. Could it mean that they haven't resumed? At this time? Besides i heard that they should be starting exams in a few week time, actually, my source claimed that they'll be starting exams in 3 weeks time. I walked around the area a bit and also noticed the same thing, there are few people the thw area. My roommate isn't around, my neighbors in the floor where i stay aren't around and home is far from here. I feel lonely.
Home is far from here. Yes, this is the as the situation is right now. I live in lagos, or should i say used to live in lagos, with my family but school and schooling activities has brought me down to the southern east of the country, Imo state to be precise. I'm not actually here for school, I'm done now, at least I've written my final papers, so whats left for me now is the school clearance, my final clearance out of the school. This invloves lots of money. At this point, you could easily forgive someone that says he has to pay for every single action he takes, lol, ironic but easily relatable.
The journey, by land, to this side hasn't always been the most enjoyable of rides. First off, i had to get to the park really early so as to meet up with the first bus. There was a lot of load dragging between me and those guys at the park. All of whom claimed to have just one more seat left to fill the bus after which they'll be in their way. That was a lie, its one i used to believe in the past until i sat in the bus park till 10.30 am one time, and the bus was yet to move. I already had my mind fixed on one bus company, The young shall grow. This is by far one of the most popular traveling companies in Nigeria and their services are top notch which is usually worth the price tag. I got a ticket and soon we left.
The air conditioner was on throughout the journey, it was really cold inside but I couldn't complain, now I think I've caught a cold. The driver drove fast and was steady. We made two major stops on the way, one was a pee stop and the other was one to take refreshments. I was careful of what i ate....you probably know why, lol. With the current state of security issues here in the east, it was understandable to see so many check points on the way. Nonetheless, we arrived in Owerri by 6.45 pm and I managed to get my bag, my heavy bag to my hostel.
My room was as i had left it but was all dusty so i had to do little cleaning that night just so i could rest peacefully. Then i began calling most of my people back in lagos, family and friends alile. Telling them of my safe trip, they all gave thanks to God. I started feeling lonely immediately after the call, like most of my friends are in Lagos, and the ones in Owerri haven't resumed yet, including my roommate.
It was heaven on earth initially. I had the whole room to myself, i could do whatever I wanted without any objections, you know just leaving life like i was the only one alive. Soon it wasn't fun anymore, I'm currently arguing with my mind that I don't need the company of anyone but my mind seems to be winning the argument, i do need the company of people. Living alone isn't the best and the fact that most people hasn't resumed isn't helping matters. So even when I'm bored of staying alone in my room, going outside seems the same, the ones who are around are simply in their own rooms most of time.
I guess i just have to bear it for a little while, just a little longer. The best i could do now is to think.of ways to enjoy myself by myself, I've been doing that but....hmm... I cooked a big pot if rice recently and I'm actually tired of eating the rice. This wouldn't have been a problem if my roommate had been around with his appetite as huge as a elephant. Wasting the food is not an option so I have to keep eating and eating and hopefully I'll get to the end of it.
I know there's a difference between being alone and being lonely, but at this point i can say that i am alone and lonely.
Thanks for reading through.