I like to add soundtracks to my posts. This is the one this time
What can I say? To be honest, I'm writing this post only because I feel a little guilty for not posting very frequently here on Hive these past few days. You might say it's because of the holidays and the commitments they bring, but that's not really the case. I haven't celebrated this year, almost not at all. Not that I didn't want to, it's just that the circumstances haven't been right.
So now I'm writing a bit off-the-cuff. The first thing that comes to mind is that I'm sad to note that several users who used to post things I found interesting have reduced — if not completely stopped — their activity. And this makes my feed much less interesting. Since Hive's price dropped below 10 cents, I've struggled to find posts that catch my attention, and this has reduced my desire to open Hive every day. But don't worry, I won't leave.
I've also reduced my activity, but the price of Hive has nothing to do with it. For many months I've been battling loneliness and a sense of abandonment, and even doing simple things like a small post, whether here or on Instagram, is as hard as swimming against the flow. You can do it for a while, but over time the fatigue builds, my brain muscles begin to ache, and I slowly slip into lethargy. A lethargy made of pity, low self-esteem, and mistrust. Emotions that create a vicious cycle, a downward spiral where the stream grows ever stronger. And I begin to desperately search for a hand willing to reach out and hold mine and keep me from sinking into the abyss.
Sorry, that was a bit too dramatic. I'm not happy but it's not all that desperate, it's just me being a little decadent.
Why use AI when you can just take a simple picture like this
I won't make any resolutions this year. Of the ones I made last year, I don't think I've accomplished a single one. Unfortunately, I've been dragged down by unfortunate circumstances that have dramatically dampened my desire to do things, and I've had no choice but to watch helplessly as I stumble day after day.
And yet, despite these difficulties, I've managed to accomplish something. I joined a new band as a bassist and am having a blast hanging out with these crazy kids who think they live in 1980s Los Angeles.
I've received an offer to join a post-punk darkwave project, where I can express a musical side that isn't suited to Harbiter.
I've started my journey as a DJ, and thanks to my contacts, I play every month, sometimes twice a month. A career destined to grow and bring me much satisfaction in the future.
I only have one good resolution for 2026: to live life to the fullest. I'll dive into experiences, enjoy the moments, learn to be happy regardless of circumstances or whether I reach my goals or not. Even if I'm alone to rejoice. I don't want to waste any more time being sad. It doesn't help anyone.
I'll focus on doing what I want when I want to do it, because I know that satisfaction will also help me more willingly do what I HAVE to do.
Happy 2026 Hive Pub, and cheers 🍻 This one's on me
