Okay so it’s Monday evening and I’m still in bed.
Not because I’m sick. Not because I’m tired. Just because I genuinely cannot motivate myself to be a functioning human being today and honestly I don’t feel bad about it at all.
My husband has been at his work station since morning. First day of the week, busiest day, very serious, very focused and so many meetings. I respect it. I really do.
why today of all days did I wake up wanting to go out, eat something nice, have a long pointless conversation, be a little flirty and just exist together doing nothing?
Every single Monday this happens with me i don’t know why! It can happen on saturday or sunday on his weekend but no. Lol
And then today’s weather ah.. can we talk about how unfair today’s weather is?
I stepped onto the balcony for literally two minutes and it was just perfect. That kind of cool fresh air that hits my face and makes close my eyes for a second. Wow! It feels so cool. The kind of evening where everything smells clean and the sky looks soft and your whole body just goes “please do not waste this.”
This weather deserves a walk. It deserves street food eaten outside. It deserves two people sitting somewhere doing absolutely nothing. You and me together.
Instead I came back inside and looked at my husband still typing at his work and i feel so done with life honestly lol.
The balcony is right there. The weather is right there. I am right here and he is replying to emails.
His work station room just six or seven steps away from bed room. I sent him a voice note. I am lying here. He is there. I sent a voice note because getting up felt like too much effort but also I had something important to say which was basically nothing just I missed him. He has not opened it yet.
want to go out. Somewhere small, doesn’t matter where. Just outside in that air. It can be some street food, walking slowly with nowhere to go. Or even just sit on the balcony together hand in hand. Gossip a little with a cup of tea. Laugh about something stupid. Watch the sky go dark. You know the good stuff.
Instead I am lying here sometimes checking to go his work place and watching him type and keep peeking over there hoping he will suddenly decide work is over.
He has not decided work is over yet.
Anyway
The weather outside is doing the most right now and nobody in this house is enjoying it except the curtains blowing in the balcony breeze.
If you also turn into your most romantic, laziest, most let’s-go-somewhere version of yourself specifically on Monday evenings when your husband is at his busy work mode — please comment below because I need to know I’m not the only one living this now.
Now I’m in the belcony and here is the chair with me we both trying to be a good company Lol.
Waiting.
He’ll finish work eventually.
Probably.
He just brought me tea without asking. Maybe he did open that voice note after all. 🥺 Oh my God I feels so shy now🫣😍
Happy Monday everyone!