Yay! It’s already a new week! That means the old week has passed, phew! At some point it felt like it wasn’t going to pass but I’m glad it did. My past week was a roller coaster of so many emotions and experiences. But most importantly, it was a hard one for me and I’m so happy God lead me all the way. Just so you know, I didn’t cry the past week despite how hard things were and in as much as I find that surprising, I’m so happy about it. Yesterday almost made me break that record but I was able to hold myself back from crying.
Now you might be wondering why I cry. Crying is one way I make myself feel better and let go of hurt. It works all the time but this time, I did something different. I spent that time with God instead. Usually when I cry I spend my time with God but it is after I’m done crying but this time, I didn’t even wait until I started crying to do so and it helped me not even cry at all. Life can be really tough sometimes and you just can’t stop doubting all you’ve been working for but I’m happy I have God to run to anytime. As a student, I easily get overwhelmed with studying and that’s because for some reason I’m not so good at it.
I can’t even mention how many YouTube videos I have watched on “how to study better” but it just doesn’t work for me. I easily get tired of looking at my book and that’s a big set back for me as a student. The only thing that works for me better is someone teaching and discussing a particular topic with me. But sadly, it’s hard to find someone like that especially for someone like me that is not good at stealing other’s time. Well, I knew all of these things and I tried as much as I could to start reading as early as we started the new semester. It was going well at some point until I started feeling tired and sick.
It was about 4 weeks to exams and since then, I stopped working hard as I used to and now that I’m sitting for my exams, I feel both happy and sad. I’m happy because those topics I read on since the beginning of the semester, they were not so hard for me to recall but I struggled with those ones I couldn’t start studying earlier on, which is why I feel sad. But overall, I’m just grateful that there haven’t been any exams that I have written so far that I was completely blank on what to write. I know most of them might not be up to the lecturers standards but I know I did what I could and I trust God to do the rest for me.
Yesterday, I wrote one of the most interesting papers. I find that course interesting because the questions looked simple on the outside but it was one of the hardest. It was the hardest because the lecturer didn’t attach the expected marks to it and it was a 3 unit course. I noticed how she kept feeling sad after scanning through what students were submitting. We were given 3 hours for that course and student started submitting just 1:20 minutes after the exam started. Interestingly, I was also done by that time and I also wanted to go and submit but then, God sent one of the lecturers to me who was kind enough to tell me one of my responses was not correct and that I should sit down and think more.
Immediately she said that, there was this particular question I didn’t want to answer before because of how long it was to answer but I later changed my mind and answered it instead. Interestingly, I had a lot of things to say on it than the previous question I attempted. It was while I was writing on that question I realized that it has a higher mark than all the other questions. I was so happy I was given a second chance and I know that could only be God. It was a question with ‘a’ and ‘b’ and I was only sure of ‘a’ but that did not stop me from attempting ‘b’. I just hope the response I gave was something related to what was asked.
Right now, I just have one more paper to go and that paper is also a 3 unit course. With the knowledge I have gotten from the one I wrote yesterday, I’ll try my best to study very well for it so I can write as much as I know on every question that I will attempt.
Thanks for all your prayers and best wishes. And thank you for stopping by once again. Have a lovely week ahead. ❤️