Giving up is like drawing water from a well with a heavy or an iron drawer which becomes heavier when there's water inside, you have dropped the drawer inside the well, filled it with water and at the process of pulling it out it becomes heavy for you, you still keep drawing because you need the water in it but at the process you feel you can't draw it out anymore so you just hang in there still holding the drawer or you release it with speed to relieve yourself, so to me that's how I just picture giving up and I hope I have brought you into such light, so in respect to that I would be discussing on Giving Up today.
My last year was all about me going to school so I had to work throughout last year but I ended up using every money I made for the house expenses, I couldn't keep saving while we lacked some things at home so I just told God if You want to help me You just help because right now I don't even have anything to lean on, so fast forward to this year during January where I had already gotten admission but I had to pay acceptance fee before I could start paying for other things, you know the way some thing will be hungrying you but when the time reach for you to make use of that thing your body will just weak and you wouldn't have that appetite again.
This me that was always talking about school became so cold when it got to the time when I was supposed to pay acceptance fee, I had earlier on had the exact amount at hand but because I didn't know I was paying anything I used it to settle some of my brother's bill in school so when i heard about the acceptance fee I was just lost, I didn't know where to get the money from and looking at things at home everywhere was dried, after analysing everything I decided not to tell anyone about it and just leave it in God's hand if help come then it was grace.
I honestly had already given up on going to school entirely because of the way things were tight for me, I was broken I was even bitter that my one big dream wasn't going to be achieved, I kept it to myself hurting only me until my mom suddenly ask me how about my school process and my acceptance fee if it's out, it was then I told her about it and she shouted and say I should have told her earlier because it will soon enter late payment, I then told her that I was considering the fact that there was no money and I didn't want to put more burden on her, it was at that point that she told me she had some money saved up and that I should use it.
That moment revived alot it me as it was so emotional for me as well, all my lost hope just springed forth as well as my dreams, I just knew God still gat me in His mind and that has been my pushing force.
Thank you all for sharing in my story, see you all next time. All images used here belongs to me.