Things I did that I find childish now

My Childish Attitude

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I would be talking on the things I did that I find childish now

One basic thing I did when I was small that I find childish now is malice keeping
There were times I go days without talking to my friends whenever I get upset, and sometimes they may not even know why I'm angry or giving them attitude.
I would get really hurt or angry, and instead of talking it out or trying to resolve the issue, I would just shut down and refuse to speak to the person. It was like I was trying to punish them or something. And the weird thing is, I would keep it up for days, sometimes even weeks, giving such attitude but I wouldn't care, once you get me upset and it happened that you're someone I cherish so well, I use to seize talking to you, so I will see the level you can reach so we could talk,
Keeping malice was something I do often.

It's actually very weird, each time I think of those moments, I would just smile and sometimes be ashamed of my foolish act
keeping malice is something I see as a childish attitude, cause I do not even allow myself to be in such position anymore

Now, I realize that's not a healthy way to handle conflicts or difficult emotions. It's better to communicate openly and honestly, even if it's hard or uncomfortable. I've pretty much grown out of that habit, and I'm glad I have, keeping malice is something I see as a childish attitude

Another childish attitude I had then was when I first started dating, I have to admit that I was quite naive and inexperienced. I used to use my friends' phones to call my boyfriend, partly because I wanted to gauge his sincerity and partly because I was curious to see how he would react in different situations.

I'd talk to him for a bit, and then I'd let my friends chat with him, pretending to be me, just to test his loyalty and see if he would fall for it, atimes I would not let him know they were my friends, to see if he would fall for the test but unfortunately, he failed those tests multiple times, which was both shocking and disappointing.

I've come to realize how childish and unnecessary those games were. But at that time, I didn't know better, and I was just trying to see reasons to keep the relationship safe which I thought was the best

As I grow older and wiser, I've learned from those experiences and developed a more mature approach to relationships. Now, I prefer to keep my relationship private and don't share my boyfriend's number with friends.

I've come to realize that relationships require trust, respect, and open communication. I'm not emotionally prepared to handle any form of disappointment or drama that could arise from sharing personal details with others in the name of trying to see who my boyfriend is

These acts have become childish, but those where the best way I thought I could handle my relationships 😂

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