I always feels that just casually sharing my experience garners the most views and the best feedback loop of conversation in the comments.
I’m not sure why I still try to teach some kind of a lesson or prove that I have something to offer in every post...
Perhaps it’s the fact that I am still trying to build a sustainable business that requires paying customers..
Perhaps it’s because I always know that I’m one or two auto-votes away from being a 
Ironically though I doubt either of them really got there by trying to prove themselves.
Perhaps it’s because if I let myself get too casual, I may get lazy with or reckless with what I share..
I've always thought I have what it takes to go trending (or go viral on old platforms) consistently. That may be arrogant on my part, but I can't help it. It isn't because I'm special or talented. It's because I pay attention to what others do not, and I can express my findings well enough.
I’m still chasing success though and I don’t think I should. It's all a process. If I want to write and create even better things in the future, I need this all the play out how it's playing out. This long grind will end up being essential for what's to come
I'm after freedom and ease, and a certain feeling which is hard to pinpoint, but which I am finally starting to understand...
My friends know I’m not about the spotlight. Attention for attention's sake is meaningless to me. I think I've isolated the single reason that I sometimes find myself chasing the spotlight though. There is only one.
I love the feedback loop that comes from feedback on my work.
When people react to you, you have a chance to react to them and it becomes a collaborative process of exploring different truths and perspectives in the open for others to see. Others see it and then the collaboration can grow.
Participating in this kind of collaboration is so damn exciting for me. It drives me. It's what I want to do with my life, regardless of what form it takes.
How many times have I been inspired to write a post by comments left by 
Sometimes I see how my posts inspire someone else to explore a topic. I don’t think 
It can happen anywhere, but for those of us who consciously create, it is something we are more aware of even if we don't put words to what it is.
One of the happiest moments I can remember was when a good friend who happens to be one of my favorite musicians sent me his newest album before the release date...
On the third or fourth track, I heard a time signature and just thought, "That's me!". My style had subtly rubbed off on him the same way his style had rubbed off on me. I doubt he even noticed.
He hadn’t ripped me off, it was still 100% him, but just this 3-4 seconds were obviously something that he had accidentally picked up from jamming with me.
His music has reached much further than mine. He’s actually very well know in his city and has collaborated with many brilliant artists.
I have many other examples, and these are the things I'm most proud of in my life. Most of them are hardly something that people point to as their greatest achievements, but they are mine.
It’s these feedback loops that drive me. I inspire you and you inspire me and we both inspire someone else. We converse. We build upon. We grow. We evolve, sometimes together, sometimes down two different paths.
We change and the world changes with us.
We don't always have the time or attention available to converse one on one, and sometimes we are input mood and sometimes we are in output mode.
The ones who are in the spotlight and do get a lot of positive engagement, are they doing it with the spotlight in mind? Some maybe, but eventually they will fade away, while it’s the ones who just do what they do who move us the most.
So with all that in mind, I’m going to be reminding myself more often to just have fun with it and not worry if the whales catch on.
I’ll even do my best not to care whether or not the friends who have supported me in the past will continue to do so.
They didn’t come because I tried to catch them. They came because they liked what I was sharing.
In the end it’s always about finding my own flow and flowing with it.
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