It is hard to accept the truth in life, most times we tend to live in denial, not accepting the mistakes we have made in life.
THE TRUTH ON TRUST
The truth I learnt the hard way is the fact that you don’t trust people even your best friends.
Last year I had a friend who I was very close to we cooked together, ate together, whenever she needed my help I was always by her side, then we had a misunderstanding, which I was thinking we sorted out, but she was not over it she still held the grudge in her heart and we were still friends after the misunderstanding we still cooked and ate together, we also slept in each other’s room together. I did not know that she told another friend of ours that she was going to poison me slowly till I died and no one would suspect that she did it because we were very close friends.
The other friend did not tell me any of this, they kept it between theirselves and I never knew was still going out with them and eating with them, until they both had a fight, it was after they fought that the other girl came and told me what my friend was planning to do me, after telling me she said I should not tell my friend that she told me about it, that I should just act like I haven’t heard about it, but I should avoid eating, cooking together and going out with my friend.
When I heard about the whole story I was shocked, because I never believed that a very close friend of mine can actually have the heart to plan such for me.
After this incident I stopped having friends, stopped partying, I have been by myself after the incident, trying to improve on myself and not been at the beck and call of a friend who will try to kill me someday.
The truth in life is that, you have only yourself in life to trust and work on. People only keep you around as long as they need you and as long as you do their biddings. When you try to take a turn and do good for yourself, then you see their true colors and know their real intentions.
LIFE & FUN
When I was younger, I always thought I was been caged, that I was not allowed to explore the world. I thought that if I went to the university that will make me free but no, I was sent to a private university where I was not allowed to go out without my mums permission. All I needed was inside the school I always thought that life been free is full of fun, all I wanted to do was fun and more fun.
I am a very easy person and my mum always knew I was the soft type, that is very open to people always pleasing other people even if it means to displease myself, that was why she always tried to preserve me from been exploited or used, Once people finds out you are a kind person or that you are flexible they try to use you for their own benefits, because they know that you would always tend to their needs over yours.
This was what my mum was trying to keep me away from, so I don’t easily get influenced by people and regret it later in life. I never knew this, all I wanted was to be free, to go out party and make friends.
After school, I went for NYSC ( National youth service corps), this is a scheme in my country where you serve the country for one year by working in schools and organizations. With NYSC I knew I was going to be free to do whatever I wanted, I was so happy saying to myself that I would have fun and explore all they had been holding me back from. Little did I know that I know nothing about this world of ours, I thought having fun was all that matters.
I experienced horrible things by leaving a carefree life which I never cared about myself and about what other people thought of me. I always thought that everything was always going to work out even if you don’t put in effort.
After the experience I realized that I was been protected from making the mistakes I made in life and I understood life was not as I thought.
I learnt that life is not all about having fun it is about working hard, preserving your dignity, setting a goal and achieving it and also been responsible.
I also learnt that Life is not always covering your mistakes with excuses, it’s is knowing your mistakes and learning from them.
This year, i started new a new life, working towards my achievements in life and focusing on what is best for me. I came to accept that no one is perfect and we all make mistakes but it does not mean that when I make mistakes I should not accept them it only makes it worst.
THE FEAR OF LOVE
I have always being afraid of commitment and love because, I was scared of being hurt or been lied to or taken for granted. Because no matter how hard I try to act tough, i was still a kind person who can’t hold grudges. And this has made people take me for granted no matter how hard I try to stay tough. I can’t say no to something I don’t approve of, or when someone offends me,I will say to myself I won’t forgive this person but I won’t be able to keep to that I always end up apologizing even when the person I wrong and I am right.
But this year when I fell in love with someone, I found out that we all need someone in life to care for and who will in return care for us too and also someone who you can rely on for life.
I learnt that loving someone is not bad as I thought It would be, and had to face the truth that one day I will have to get married and start building a family.
This has affected my life in so many ways that I am glad about, because it has made me focused on my future.
Thanks for reading my post🙂
Interested in some of my post?