The last several weeks of the old year, I have been binging on alternative media reports, channelers, Matt Kahn, Kyle Cease and Shunyamurti amongst others,
But all along, I realized a heavy dark feeling of being ultra tense, of waiting nervously..
And after contemplating that feeling for a while, I understood that omg
I am actually really waiting for a 'cue' on how to live my life now that we all agree that the Old World was all a lie.
Pretty deep mirror.
I feel very spiritually connected since young age, however I've never had any 'crazy' experiences or paranormal encounters, no. It's always just been me and my heart.
No master
No mentor
No role model
No elder sibling
No teacher
No Guru
No Angels
No galactic beings
No fairies
No aliens
None.
Just me, and me. (Whatever those two 'me' were)
I have rarely had an 'external' spiritual experience and I've been self conscious about it for long.
Like in the movies, a big part of me always sat there waiting someone is coming to choose me, to initiate me, to tell me I am the future, I am the sacred child they all have been waiting for.
But no messenger ever came.
At least never that upfront as in the tales we all are familiar with.
So after years of not feeling special enough and looking out for my 'initiator' far and wide, I ultimately ventured in entrepreneurship trying to prove it all, myself.
After a spectactular burnout and rehab, I started to confront my 'folie des grandeurs' and saw more and more that we are all from the same majestic seed. I didn't need to feel better or worse than anybody.
But I was still struggling deeply with a common human dilemma:
How to be your best self when you automically feel that you may jeopardize everyone else's spotlight?
Many of us have carried this fear. The fear of overshadowing others.
So confusing and then NO:
"...Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
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'A Return To Love' (1992) by Marianne Williamson
We are all it.
Everybody is waiting for his/her own revelation.
And thats how coronaTION happened and still is.
There are a couple of perspectives I would like to propose to invite some contemplation;
I am not for marching in the streets.
I have witnessed the algerian Hirak and seen how it has changed absolutely nothing.
I understood right there in the common debate that the problem was not the leaders, it was the delusion of a political system that has never been effective on African grounds, not even viable in our world as we are all seeing every day now.
I walked in the Hirak in Algiers only once,
I saw how many police & law enforcers walked amongst the people incognito to be the first ones to 'neutralize' anyone stepping out of line. Many people in my own entourage had been arrested & kept in prison and been surveilled without trial.
I know I may break some hearts but it's what I feel true when I say that marching for freedom is as credible as animals in a zoo marching every weekend in front of their owners office for their freedom. All it will do is attract more voyeurist visitors and reinforce their position as owners of those beings.
Nobody is giving us our freedom. We just have it and better make sure we live by it.
I don't believe in the manmade system. Just as I don't believe in the validity of the argument of "survival".
Actually let's tackle it right now:
We are the most "intelligent" race on earth, yet we are the only beings that pay for food & shelter.
Yes, the game is not the system. The game of life is LIFE.
How about we accept the reality of uncertainty and fully embrace our personal responsibility in our thriving.
How about we TRUST ourselves, spirit, nature and God.
Nature ALL WAYS provides. Definitely not what the ego wants,
but life force is not intimidated by uncertainty to know how to go on living.
Nothing belongs to us. Nothing.
Its nice to have stuff but its nicer to know they are not mine to hold.
I am only custodian.
Now, what if we did not even need that much food and have actually a body that can run on various "fuels" other than the ones we can see and touch.
Our body shall be compared with mycelia, a constant DNA upgrading network, so self-sufficient and so self-sentient that it has no problem adapting to any change of circumstance.
If you forget all your biology classes and check out your body as you would the universe, there is as much vastness as the infinite possibilities of transforming particles and energy into.. energy lol.
Survival Dogma is so yesterday, let's shift the tables and investigate Creative Solutions to live on Terra like a tourist in Paradise:
From the millions of people marching, how about those millions all go to the bancomats and empty their accounts. Fiat is worth monopoly currency now anyways.
How about everybody stops paying taxes?
Quit the jobs especially those that are corruptingly funding the machine. Don't cry over karma when debauchery convinced you of survival.
No social security, we dont need that cowardly illusion.
How about we all fire our state and ad-ministrative employees and regents that ended up convincing us we were their possession?
How about we all terminally divorce the toxic narcissist infrastructure and society?
We could have collectively used our energy and time and brain better if all those people had full faith in Natures providence and true humanity.
We don't need leaders anymore.
We need a humanity that can never be bought.
Thats why, our freedom is never lost. It exists for ever. Even beyond this body.
Garden of Earthly Delights - Hieronimus Bosch more detailed views here
The only thing left to do is irrelevancy.
Seeing in ourselves, that all this depraved Truman world is not worth our precious Attention.
Seeing in ourselves, that no body no thing no God is coming to help us from Outside ourselves.
Seeing in ourselves; that a divine human being is infinitely more noble than the Queens of England combined and has no interest in wasting its time with anything that is not TRUE.
The government is not true to ourselves.
The system is not true to ourselves.
The corporations are not true to ourselves.
Institutions are not true to ourselves.
NGOs are not true to ourselves.
Permits are not true to ourselves.
Documents are not true to ourselves.
The law is not true to ourselves.
The hisstory is not true to ourselves.
The science is not true to ourselves.
The language is not true to ourselves.
The mind is not true to ourselveS.
Now.
What am I waiting for to explore the TRUTH of this world the Creator invited me in?
If not me, who? If not now, when?
If not you, who?
Just do it and know the entire Humanity is doing it with you now.
All childhood you wait for the day you can live by YOUR terms.
And now you see you have unlimited possibilities and a kind of transcendent freedom you never had fathomed.
And now,
When is independence day truly?
Happy New Earth to all of you majestic liquid crystals out there!
May you step in your sovereign Grace with no holding back,
Let us remind each other of the crystalline plasma that touches us all and connects us much strongly than we could ever imagine. Let us move together and join to form new light bridges, new codes of information and new foundations of trust and sincerity.
MAY YOU SLAY WITH LOVE,
☥ K P H ☥