Why I believe what I do?
As a child I divided my time between being outside in nature or reading books. I was fascinated with the natural world and loved to be outdoors exploring and discovering new things and new ways to be creative. I observed so much and my love for the natural world, just grew and grew.
When I was at home I read, anything I could find on the natural world and on the many different cultures that are in it. We are all born super inquisitive, hungry to learn and hungry for knowledge about the world we live in. It is how we learn to navigate our way and the younger we are the more authentic we are. Our learning is intuitive, we are very clear on what we need to know in order to grow and the environment we grow up in can really help or hinder that growth.
My passion for the natural world, always led me to question anything that promoted it’s destruction. I grew up in a catholic country and went to church every week, I couldn’t understand the reasoning for this devotion of a being that allowed the environment to be destroyed or who’s representatives, i.e priests, advocated blood sports. I had a hard time believing in the church and I never felt comfortable giving thanks in a cold and uninviting building.
It just didn’t feel right to me, not when all that we had to be thankful for was provided by nature. So from a young age I learned to distrust the general narrative, to always ask questions and to follow my gut feeling when it came to learning.
In my late teens when I was trying to find out what I wanted to do, I got into nursing and I really struggled with what I was seeing and learning. But I approached it with the desire to 'change things', how naive I was, especially considering I ended up working for the health system.
But it also gave me a really good insight into how it works and how much it is influenced by the pharmaceutical companies. How they use their power to control, the many lives of the people who are placed on their medications. It's all a trap really!
So today when I read something or someone tells me something I choose to believe it based on all that I have learned growing up. If it resonates with me, if it brings me closer to nature then I take it for truth. Mostly it comes from how that belief sits with me personally.
I knew from an early age that I could not trust those who were closest to me. I grew up knowing that the world is not a perfect place full of light and love, but that it has darkness and that humankind is often driven by ego, and that many people try to manipulate others for their own good.
I saw this in my family and through religion. I saw how people can say one thing and then do another, I saw how easy it is to lie and deceive people, how it can come quite naturally for some.
So My truth is not going to be the same as everybody else's, because it has to fit in with my lifestyle (one that is out of the system, as I don't trust it) and fit in with my belief system. But generally speaking if someone is trying to tell me that what is happening is positive, when in actual fact it is causing more division, alienating people, destroying lives then I am not going to believe it. That seems pretty obvious right?
If some one is trying to preach to me about something, claiming they are some sort of spiritual master, whilst in reality they live a rather luxurious life, jet setting all over the world and surrounding themselves with animal skins, then I am not going to believe them! How could I, when they are exploiting the planet and animals!
I know that what we see, what we are allowed to see is mostly a smoke screen, that we need to go beyond and dive deep in order to see the truth of things. I have no faith in mainstream media, why would I when I know it is run by a select few, who control what we see, the same people who wish to control us.
I am shocked that so many people who I once considered to be friends, have now started to believe this great divide that is currently being played out in front of us. How suddenly all the freedom seekers are now fascists and Nazi’s. These are people who prior to this would have questioned the MSM, but now, now they simply refuse to see!
I believe what I do, because I know it to be true for me. I will always strive for freedom in all aspects of our lives and anything that questions that or tries to take it away will always set off alarm bells for me.
I listen to my body, when I want to know what foods are good for me. I look to nature when I want to be healed, I looked to my body when I birthed my daughters. I trust my own self when it comes to what I believe, I am always open to learn, I am always open to people sharing their point of view with me. I know there is so much more in this world for me to learn, but I follow my path when it comes to that learning, and that comes from a place of trust in myself. Trust in the universe that I am exactly where I am meant to be.
