Maybe you're all wondering why do I make a content about my own birthday. It's not that I need some attention or whatever you'll call it. It's just being part of me that asked me to be emotional this day. I never experience what it feels like having a abundance birthday celebration. Like there's a feast in the table, simple food to serve for friends. Small amount of liquors that we can enjoy my day for long while having a chill conversation. Just a normal celebration maybe that would be fine as long as you could tell that this day is different from the previous days.
It's not that it's hard for us to eat everyday. Like hard to eat 3 times a day, no... it's not like that. It's just that everytime it's my birthday I have no money in my pocket and my family don't have as well. As I grow older I stop thinking like that because I already understood what kind of life we had. Especially these previous days I was eager to find a job to pursue the course that I finished. I need to earn money so that I can take or enrol the seminar I must undergo before I can on board in the ship.
If you encountered my previous posts, it's all about applying for a job. I was hoping to have s job for that sole purpose, to undergo seminars. But I think fate is teasing me because till this time I haven't found one. Even though how much I'm eager and determined to have a job. I was being rejected, well of course I was hoping also to have a celebration if I just find a job. Although it seems it's not my time yet for now. Maybe my fairy tale story will just start in the future I guess.
Being a grown man doesn't mean you don't want to have a birthday celebration. It's not that you're not fit to it or I'm not fit to anymore. Maybe it's being part of me who is wishing to have a small birthday celebration but I chose to forget it because the kind of life I have now. It's not that I'm eager to have it that I will beg to have a celebration. I wished for it but I did my best to ignore it because I became mature and wise to understand what I must priorities.
After I'm talking about dreaming to have a celebration I finally and fully understand now. I can forget the dreams of having a birthday celebration but I can't never forget that it makes me happy because of my family. I finally realised that what's important in this world is happiness. Yes, it's my birthday and it seems there's nothing different from it. However, when I see myself being in an awesome family. All my worries and dramas faded. I may not have a abundance banquet of celebrations. I have wonderful family who can make me keep on smiling in thia world.
If the lord will grant my wish because it's my birthday. I would wish that mother will have a long life. My family would have a long life where we can enjoy the life that God given to us. No birthday celebration? Nah... I'm fine with that, I'm used to that. I just want to have a healthy life, a peaceful life and a happy life.
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