Third consecutive day today of 30 morning minutes of meditation. Today I even managed a 30 minute walk before hand, which is progress, after a few months/ years of regress!
It was tough sitting still this morning, compared to the last two days which were just fine, but I guess that was the novelty factor of 'getting back to it'.
Today the first 15 minutes, before my first 'interval bell' seemed like an eternity, not in a particular horrendous way, I was just feeling a bit fidgety.
I should probably hoover before I sit
But I remember this is what happens when you start any new practice anew: you have a short enthusiastic 'honeymoon' period, and then the novelty wears off and the hard work starts.
I think my monkey mind just wanted to get back to it's thinking habits today, following a couple of days of relative peace compared to what I've been like for the past months/ years. I even managed a nice little meditative tidying session last night, rather than messing about online just before bed, so maybe this morning is pay-back for that: my mind just re-establishing itself.
After about 20 minutes, I did settle into the sitting - I do have years of practice of this behind me, even if I've been slack of late, and there's definitely a memory of this that helps.
A few realisations also occurred....
I remembered that the whole point of me wanting to go buy some land somewhere is so I can just live simply and cheaply and be able to meditate more, that's the whole point, so I'm sort of left wondering why I haven't just been doing this already - meditation first - I guess that's a reaffirmation of the essential importance of just sitting there.
Then I started to drift into thoughts about blogging - not in a bad way, so I went with it - or not so much thoughts, rather a reminder that I should be focusing on developing 'one big project' and refining it, rather than all of the little bits and pieces I've been doing for the last couple of months of working at home.
And now comes the next realisation - it's probably my micro-working on smaller chores that's left my mind a bit fragmented. Not that there was anything I could do, all of these things needed doing, and now I'm 'ahead with my work' I can start to work in 'bigger chunks' if that makes any sense at all.
It does to me!
Anyway, back to it, quite happy with being back on board with the morning meditations, the next phase is to stop playing Splinterlands as soon as I wake up on Tuesday morning, not helped by my Steem PowerDown going through on Monday nights!