I don't want to go to Veliky Ustyug. I avoid all the past emotional, I don't want to feel something. Yes, I'm kidding myself....it would seem, after all that was conscious!
I didn't walk much in my hometown, but one walk to the store. Yes yes. this walk gave me so many emotions and sensations that I will never forget it.
I don't care how it sounds. Don't pay attention. But I walked among the courtyards and felt like I was some kind of world-famous actor, that everyone around me was paying attention to me, and I was like an alien among the places where I grew up.
Well, that was the feeling...it passed later, but I want to live for this.
And I want to study these feelings in order to control them later.
And if non-reciprocal ones are suitable, then get rid of them quickly.