The Battle with Mr. P

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Yes, life is still beautiful. I do hope everything is going awesomely for you wherever you are. I know, Monday is not everyone's favorite but we always get through it no matter what, noh?

Most people are fighting some battles every day. I do too, not with anyone else, but with my own demons and that includes procrastination which I often refer to as Mister P (or Mr. P) in my write-up. It appears harmless at first, visiting once in a while, then it becomes frequent, and when you are not careful, it takes a room in your house. Truly a mischievous enemy, I say. It kills your enthusiasm, robs your productivity, and stops you from accomplishing things.

Many years ago, I usually got things done. I rarely postpone for tomorrow. That was true even after retiring from my 9-5 job. When one thing is completed, I'd look for another and see it to the finish line, then the cycle repeats. That was the typical me. Sitting idle on most days didn't sit well with me. We had lazy days too but they were still spent productively.

When we were at the other place, I did gardening, DIY, helped my sister in her rental business, and did whatever else I could. I would volunteer to babysit my brother's daughter. I would even tidy up their house because his wife (now ex) was not a homebody.

At night, I'd be on my computer attending to my online stuff, learning and discovering new things. I always made sure my to-do list was checked off before going to bed. The next morning I would wake up as early as 4 am, go jogging, connect with nature, and back home at half past 5 or 6.

Back then, I was a member of the 5 am gang (the last one to go to bed and the first to wake up). I was driven, physically active, and mindful of how I utilized my time, and what I could accomplish in 24 hours, mentally noting what I could improve the next day. The truth is, I didn't like the word 'later.' It irked me when hearing it from those around me. I preferred doing things 'now' to later.

Fast forward to today, I find myself constantly struggling to do things, let alone finish most of them. Later has become a comfortable word, putting off some work for tomorrow.

So what changed?

I've gotten older, less healthy, and have a dog.

Also, I think Mr. P has taken residence in my home after its frequent visits, especially this year. It was hard for me to admit at first but that's the truth.

The good thing though is that I can still manage to kick it out on most days. Hence, achieving some important things and keeping me on track with my daily goals (both in real life and online). And I intend to keep fighting and winning one day at a time by pushing through. Baby steps... until I have my momentum back, and making sure to keep some balance and not compromise my well-being (my mistake in the past year).

Onwards and forwards...