I don’t want to be nocturnal anymore!!
It’s 1:1 am, and my eyes are wide open, and I feel hyperactive. I feel unstoppable, and if I wasn’t making this post, I would have probably been arranging my apartment or cooking. I don’t know how I got to this point in my life, but staying awake all night and sleeping at dawn is beginning to bother me. This new sleep routine of mine sucks!
At first, it started as a superpower where I could do so many things while everyone slept. I’d boast nonstop about being nocturnal and enjoying it, but right now it’s a big issue and as sad as it seems, I need help!
I have tried everything to sleep early, from reading boring books to exercising , planning my day, keeping my phone away, and to shutting my eyes while lying on the bed, but nothing seems to work, and it bothers me a great deal.
The crazy part of my predicament is being able to still wake up early for work without feeling tired or lightheaded. I don’t know how this happens, but I want it to end and I wish it could end ASAP!
I envy people who get a complete 8-10 hours of sleep, as I cannot remember the last time I slept for that long without delay or interruption. You guys are so so lucky!
I miss those days when I could lie on my bed and I was sure I was going to lalala land in minutes without any difficulty but right now, one of my prayer points is to sleep, is that a waste of prayer point? Hell no!! This prayer point is very valid! And I pray God hears me pretty soon.
Do you know one of the pains we don’t talk about? Is lying in bed for hours with your eyes shut, waiting for sleep to take over, but nothing happens, or tossing and turning nonstop as the chaos in your head gets louder and frustrating. This pain hurts more than we give it credit for, and having to experience it constantly is torture!!
Having a stupid sleep routine sucks and in moments like this, I get to appreciate sleep for what it is and the power it possesses.
No matter how hard it is to sleep at night, I’m glad I am no longer scared of ghosts or the dark as it would have made sleeping even harder, I know how long it took me to to believe that ghosts do not exist😂
I’m putting this post out here because I just wanted to pen my thoughts down and save them on this immutable blockchain.
For everyone who struggles to sleep like me, I pray it gets better, and sleep becomes our friend and nothing ruins our relationship. For people who do not need to struggle to sleep, I’d love to know how you guys do it for real, please spill the tea😃
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