Phew 😮💨. What a bad way to end a day that started off badly. Honestly, i don’t even know where to start from. I am feeling like a mute right now, i feel like i’ ve just lost my voice. I have so many things to say but then I can’t seem to get the words right out of my head. The funniest thing about this whole situation is that i have a lot in my head right now, but then i don’t just know where to start from or how to go about it. The last time I felt this way was months ago, can’t believe it’s happening again…
Honestly, this wasn’t the great comeback i anticipated hours ago, i thought i was going to be resuming my writing career with a banger after being off for 9 whole days, but then it turns out life had something else planned for me. That is to say; i got banged by life instead. Pardon the use of that word, I just can’t find a better word in my head right now, I’m blocked. Mind you, it’s an harmless word, leave out the direct meaning and you will understand that particular sentence better…
I have so many things going through my head right now. I have over a thousand and one emotions bottled up within me right now. A lot has happened in the last 1-2 hours. The first was a semi-heated argument with a neighbor of mine, and the second is something I don’t want to talk about. I don’t even think i will ever be able to talk about it at all, and that’s because there’s a lot of emotions attached to it. I’d rather lock it up deep within me, than to open up my mouth to say anything about it. I guess it’s high time i got myself a diary, i think i need to keep one now for a thousand and one reasons…
I have been away from hive for nine days. Honestly, this wasn’t a planned disappearance, it just happened and just as expected I didn’t have control over it. School has been demanding since the year started. It’s been one issue or the other, and everything just felt overwhelming at some point. I have missed a whole lot of days of posting since the year started, now there’s no me getting any yearly badge from hivebuzz by the end of the year. Anyways, that’s not the end, if i don’t get it this year, there’s always a next year to meet up. Right now school is my topmost priority…
It still feels like a dream for real. I don’t know how I’m feeling right now. I just needed a place to pour out my heart, and just like i do in the past, I’m doing the same by sharing everything here, but then i just can’t do it this time…
I think i need to drop my pen right here. I’m starting to feel funny. I will be here tomorrow for a fact. This is the best distraction I need right now. Anyways, it’s nice to be back for now. I will try my best to write daily moving on…
NB; this post was published 12:25 am ( midnight)…
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