1:16am
If this question was asked last year, around October or November, I would have confidently said Snapchat, No hesitation at all, that period was when I finally learned how to use Snapchat very well, filters, streaks, stories, random snaps, snapping people for no reason… I was enjoying myself too much, I didn’t want to leave that app, I would tell myself, “Let me just check one snap,” and next thing it’s 1am, Lol....It was that bad.
But things have changed.
Lately, YouTube has taken over my midnight life.
And it is not even because I want to watch movies or comedy skits or lifestyle vlogs, It is because I’m currently trying to pass a particular puzzle test, I have already made two attempts, and I only have two more chances left, If I don’t pass this puzzle, I won’t be able to take the course attached to it, just typing this alone is giving me small anxiety.
This puzzle has been stressing me out for days now.
So every night, instead of sleeping, I carry my phone, open YouTube, and start searching. “How to solve puzzle test.” “Puzzle solving tricks.” “Logical reasoning practice.” “How to pass assessment test.” Anything that looks related, I click.
Sometimes I will be watching one video and feel like I understand everything, then I try to practice, and boom… confusion again, then I go back to YouTube.
That’s how YouTube became my midnight companion.
Some nights I tell myself, “Just watch two videos and sleep.” But two videos turn to five, five turns to ten, before I know it, it’s almost morning and my eyes are burning.
The funny part is that I am not even enjoying it like entertainment. It’s more like pressure watching, I am watching because I need to pass, I am watching because I don’t want to fail again, I am watching because I really want to move forward.
So yes, YouTube is the app you will catch me using at midnight these days.
Not because I am bored.
Not because I am gossiping.
But because I am trying to better myself, even though it’s stressful.
Sometimes I laugh at myself because who would have thought that YouTube of all apps would be the one keeping me awake at night, Life is funny like that.
I just hope all this sleepless night, stress, and endless videos will pay off in the end, I am really hoping I pass this puzzle test, take the course, and look back one day and say, “I’m glad I didn’t give up.”
So yeah, that’s my midnight app.
Not Snapchat anymore.
It’s YouTube now.
And honestly, I can’t wait for the day when YouTube will stop being a problem and go back to being just normal YouTube again.
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