What can happen in just a month, right? Actually, for someone like me who couldn't relax if my body wouldn't give up already, a lot could happen in just a day. What's more if it has been a month? I couldn't even digest the first thing I experience and then, there's another one coming my way. As if I could just dodge it or simply ignore those things, right?
So, there I was being in a hiatus here for a month. I decided to come back into writing blogs today to overcome those deadweights that has been on my mind lately. Though I'm still busy, I made up my mind to put these into words.
Flexing my cute little cheering squad.
Well, it all started from our Capstone Project and OJT. I know these are the last requirements that I need to pass for me to finally graduate this year and end this misery somehow. Surely, we have been through with sleepless days, exhausted from many revisions, and drained our wallets dry just like any other students have gone through, only to finish this course that we choose all these years in college. I have GOOD NEWS! After months where my sanity has been hanging on a thread for this project, it was finally approved and we're now working on the paper works, on the way to bookbinding. Though it was still far from over, but at least, it's only a few steps ahead now and we'll be done in a few days. I couldn't wait to breath lightly in the next few months knowing I'll be done with this burden.
As for my OJT, I'm already halfway there. I still have until the third week of May to complete my required hours, then I wouldn't be thinking of school anymore. Looking back, I started my college journey with full of hope towards my future and a way to redeem myself. As I went through with all the challenges in the years that came, it open my eyes to something that could disappoint me further. Everything is not according to my plan, though I have thought this through carefully during pandemic before enrolling.
NOW, I'm not even sure if I had made the right decisions for myself or maybe, I just wasted my entire savings, time and effort to something that isn't worth the hardships that I have been through these years. Maybe, I was just exhausted and that make my thinking all so fuzzy. The only thing that I'm really sure is that I needed a good rest, detached myself for a while with things that's not worth my attention, and recuperate. My health has been greatly compromised ever since I started pursuing that diploma. It's like digging my own grave.
I may have sounded like I regret this decision so much. I admit, it's more like it actually but I'm completely sure since I'm already disheartened by all the stress it put me through. Well, let's see about that after few months when I'm finally out of this hell.
As for my work, I'm out of training, passed the nesting period and I have started my floor walk at the production for a few weeks now. Work has been good to me lately. The working environment isn't as exhausting than the previous and no toxicity with the management. I like them actually for being so professional on handling their people. It's like having a reset in a good way. No toxic colleagues and no toxic customers over the phone.
Though I'm struggling on the other aspects of my life, I'm still blessed with some things. I can't really blame life for that, instead, I'm deeply grateful for the experiences and the lessons along the way.
