On the 17th day of February, in the year 2002, a little girl was born. She became the first joy and blessing for her parents, the first one who made her parent's dream do come true and that is to build a family. Hello! It's me hivers, . I am from the Philippines. I was born and spent my eighteen years in the city known as the "City of Smiles," which is Bacolod City, but when I turned 19, my family moved to the province, which is my father's hometown, the municipality of Murcia in the province of Negros Occidental.
Now, I'm a 21-year-old lady, has a height of 5'7, has a fair skin, and a voluptuous body type. I am a third-year college student taking up a Bachelor's Degree in Secondary Education, major in English at a community college, Bacolod City College. It is my pleasure to introduce myself and to share a few details about myself. Enjoy!
My Life
Photo taken during my 19th birthday
I was born and raised in a humble family of five, where I was the eldest child and have two younger brothers.
Ever since I opened my eyes to the reality of life at such a young age, I always thought of the burden of responsibilities and expectations that are coming from my parents and from the people around me. I learned to be independent when I was a third grade pupil; going to school, doing housework, then studying is my only routine. I grew up wanting to exceed the expectations of my parents, both in academics and responsibilities in our household, as well as for my younger brothers. Since here in the Philippines, we are taught a particular norm that first-born child are considered the "breadwinners" of the family, especially if he or she was born in a peasant family. The first born sons or daughters are expecting to be the ones who will provide for their family, support his or her parents and siblings.
However, it's a good thing for me that, no matter how hard our lives are, my parents never pressured me in terms of providing for them especially now that I'm at age where I should be the one who will provide for them. According to them, as long as they are still able to work to provide for us, they will do so, I just need to focus in my studies. The same thing in terms in my academics they are not pressuring me at all. I never heard my parents telling me, that I should be at the top of my class or pursue any academic award in school. As long as I'm doing my best, that is already enough for my parents. Instead, it's me who's pressuring myself to do better and surmount my capacity because I know that even Mama and Papa aren't telling me to excel, I think they are still hoping that I'm really trying my best in everything that I do. Besides, If I don't pressure myself, I won't be able to reach my goals in life and aim for better things for my myself and for my family's future. That "pressure" will motivate me to strive harder and to take risks. As taking risks means going out of my shell to learn and to grow. Just like how I take risks in taking a course in college.
My parents
This is my mama and papa, the picture of the two most important people in my life. Since I'm the eldest, I'm the first one to witness their hardwork and sacrifices for our family, so I consider myself to be blessed enough to have them as my parents. My parents grew up having a poor and hard life, the reason why I wanted to give a fulfilling life for them. I'm praying that one day I can pay them back from the things that they've done for me and for my siblings, because they truly deserve it.
I remember when I was young, my mother told me that she once dreamed of becoming a teacher. However, since she was born into a peasant family, her parents can't able to provide and support her education. It is one of her eldest brother who supports her in college. However, he cannot afford the profession she wanted to take, which is to be a teacher, so she doesn't have a choice but to take another program instead. The reason why she hasn't finished her degree is because her interest and heart is not into it. Later on, after she stopped her schooling,she decided to work instead, and in her workplace, she met the man that she will be with forever, and that is our father.
My parents' love bore three children, and they live happily ever after, but their lives aren't as perfect as expected. Since life will give you a trial, a trial that will test the love they have for each other and the faith they have to God.
The biggest struggle my family has ever experienced was when my father got dengue, so he needs to be admitted to the hospital for almost 3 months. It was the darkest days for my family. Me and my brother were so young during that time; I was four years old, while my brother was only two years old. We were left under the guidance of our grandmother, the mother of my father. She took care of us and attended to our needs.
The hardest part when my father is in the hospital, my parents don't have enough financial resources to cover the expenses of my father's medicine and the hospital bill. I don't know how my parents survived on that one since I was little when that happened; all I could think is that "God provides." Indeed, God works in a mysterious way. Have faith, and keep on believing that God is with us. Maybe we can't see him, but we can feel his goodness for us.
In God's grace, my father recovered from that dengue, and he is okay now. I admire my father for fighting; maybe he considers us —my mother, me, and my brother —as his strength to fight, and probably our love gave him the strength to survive.
One thing I also learned remembering that experience is, a mother's love is the purest form of love, just like our grandmother's love for us. She took care of us; she stood as a father and our mother in the times that we needed the most. We are so lucky to have her by our side. Sadly, she passed away 11 years ago. The only memories I left with her, is her love, care, and comfort she gave to me and to my brother during the hardest time of our lives, and I will truly treasure it forever.
Who am I?
I'm a daydreamer. I love to daydream, seeing myself becoming like that and this, traveling the world, discovering new things, having the things that I don't have since my parents can not afford it, and above all, having the desire to provide the best life for my parents and siblings. Call me ambitious, but I have a lot of dreams that I want to happen for myself and for my family as well. I know that those dreams needs passion, perseverance, and motivation to achieve those. All I have to do is to keep on believing that what's meant for me will come at the right time, in God's perfect plan.
I also once imagine a life going or living abroad. You know, I sometimes daydream that I have a teleportation skill and found myself to a country of my dream which is the Switzerland. I always admire it's painted-like mountain scenery, imagining the sweet fresh air, cool people, and peaceful ambience. It brings comfort to me as I love country-side sceneries where mountains overlapped with each other and every morning your view looks so majestic. Who else doesn't want a life like that, right? I'm just hoping that dream will do come true in God's perfect time where I can bring my family with me, travelling the world.
Speaking of giving my family the life they deserve, of course we could not just live in imagination, we need to work out for our dream future. Building a career, make our own name, and make a lot of money since I'm not born with a silver spoon. In order to fulfill those dreams I should first find the career where I can put my passion and dedication.
Becoming a teacher is my ultimate dream. Specifically, I was eight years when I realized that I wanted to become, someone who will not just to teach but to guide, inspire, and mold the future of our motherland. Honestly,I wasn't influenced by anybody else even my mother. For me, it was like a calling, on which it was my own decision to pursue. Right now, it is a long way going to the finish line. There may be obstacles or hindrances along the road, I will surely face it with much courage and positive mindset that I will survive until I reach the tip of the mountain of my dream.
In addition, I also once imagined of becoming a broadcaster or a newscaster since I wanted my parents to watch me in the television or let them hear my voice on the radio and admire the look on their faces of being proud of me. The opportunity occurred when I was a fourth-grade student. I became a part of our school's journalism club. At first, I was assigned as a feature writer, but I realized I didn't that much talent for writing. All I know is that I want to write to express myself, my ideas, and make others know what interest me the most. Until I realized that I wanted to be part of the broadcasting team when I saw the group of broadcasting students practicing for the upcoming competition in journalism. I tried and do the audition where they gave me a script of a news report then they let me read it, luckily I passed. They even complimented my voice in delivering the news, they said my voice has a great potential in speaking. So that motivates me to strive harder and keep going. I even got a chance to join in one of the prestigious newscasting competition in the city which held by one of the big broadcasting station in the country, the ABS-CBN Newscasting competition. However, being a first-timer, I'm not able to be part of the top 25 since there's almost like five hundred contestants came from different schools in the city. On the other hand, I took that as a big opportunity to be a representative of my school and consider as a great experience for myself.
Unfortunately, my passion for broadcasting lasted until I was in 8th grade. I decided to stop and just focus on my studies. Now, I wanted to go back to the field where I think I can excel. Though the opportunity never came again, only time and destiny can tell, and only God knows what's truly meant for me.
Other Facts about Me
How ironic it is, that my dream careers involved interacting with other people. I am an introvert type of person, I'm nervous when interacting with other people whose I consider as strangers for me. I still having a little stage fright when I'm told to speak in front of a crowd and even in front of my classmates. I'm still trembling during our oral recitation or reporting. However, thanks to my college professors, classmates and especially to my friends who are cheering me up to continue conquering my fear. Thankfully, I'm now gradually overcome my shyness or that "stage fright" that now I'm building a confidence to myself and to my capability.
Photo taken during our freshmen day at school
Considering myself as an introvert, I prefer to make my circle of friends small as possible. I choose wisely who I will be with and who will going to be my friends are. I want a friend where I'll be comfortable with, have the same attitude, likes, and dislikes. No pretentions as I need someone who will accept my negative side not just when I am at my best, and most of all a friend who is crazy as me. Fortunately, I found a friend in the existence of these two lovely young ladies who will surely going to be with me all throughout my journey in college.
While being curious about on "What is my hobby?". Sorry to disappoint you all, but I don't have any outdoor hobby or sports in particular. As an introvert, I prefer to stay at home doing my responsibilities in our house, taking care of my siblings, writing, and listening to audiobooks during my free time is my hobbies I could think of.
This is all of me, people might see me outside as a boring person, it is because they never tried to know me deeper. I have my own world, just waiting for wanderers with persistence and have the courage to discover about it. Others succeed to conquer but only few chose to stay.
Closing
I discovered this website during one sunny Friday morning, me and my friends are at our cafeteria having a chit-chat when our professor approached us, sat and interact with us. When he found out that I have a interest in writing he introduce this website to me and it caught my interest and curiosity when he said that this is a great opportunity to discover new things, meet new people around the world, and develop my writing skills.
Entering into this world of blogging is beyond my expectation and as I only thought that my ideas and fondness in writing will only remain untold and as a dream. I am thankful to , which is my professor, for introducing me this website and for giving me the opportunity to discover the possibilities of my dreams here. As well as, to
who guided me upon entering this world of blogging. I'm so excited to see my growth in writing on this community, meet new people around the world, and develop my skills in writing. I admit, there's so much to improve in my writing skills, and I'm more open to criticisms, opinions, and advices of everyone here. I will try my best to share my experiences, the things around me and that might entertain or inspire others. It would be great to share my own world into this world of blogging.
To be continued.....