"Winning once doesn’t necessarily mean you have to stop."
This is a screenshot I took on my phone last May 11, 2026.
Before passing the board exam, I made a promise: to prepare food for the kids at our church. It’s a simple but delicious dish that fits my limited budget.
Ingredients:
Macaroni, Evaporated Milk, Chicken, Hotdogs, Ham, Carrots, Cabbage, Cheese, Pepper, Onion, and Garlic
To fulfill my promise, I saved a small amount of money. Thankfully, my friend sent me a little extra to use for treating my family, but I ended up using it to buy ingredients for my plan instead.
Here's the finished product but it was a bit bland, I pour a lot of water. Kyaahhhh.
I’m grateful for all the blessings I’ve received, and I share them with others, even when it’s just enough to make them happy. I planned to cook macaroni soup, or “sopas,” and pair it with my sister’s homemade pizza. But the budget was tight, so I ended up buying popcorn instead.
I was excited about my plan. I told the kids to come to our house because I had a small treat for them. At first, I felt disappointed because I thought they wouldn’t show up. But they arrived at the last minute, one after another.
Other kids were late and so I have not taken a photo.
I thought the end game was just passing the board exam, but I was totally fooled. There’s oath-taking, ranking, and many more steps after that.
For now, I’m really worried about my oath-taking journey. I got my schedule, and guess where the location is? Cebu City 😭. It’s way too far, so there will be more expenses and another struggle to overcome.
Just thinking about it makes my head feel like it's going to explode with so much thoughts, but I will never give up. I might be struggling now, but I'll find a better way to lessen the burden- especially by avoiding additional debts.
And that's when I realized my battle wasn't over yet. I may have accomplished a little, but doesn't mean I have to stop there. This is just the beginning of my real journey- as a mature person preparing for my career and my future.
Honestly, I don't feel set on pursuing the teaching profession right now. I am doubting myself. I am not sure if I can fit in or adjust eventually. I feel like a mess, and nothing feels right. And I don't know what I should do.
I feel pressured by what people around me say. When I hear them, I feel bad, as if they're right. But when I ask myself, I want to find something my heart truly wants- something I can commit to and enjoy.
But it would feel like a waste not to pursue what I worked so hard for in college. What if I pursue the profession I trained for, only end up unhappy with the choice I made?
What a nagger, nega- meee!
I can't stand the overthinking! But I'm choosing to believe that things will get better after the oath-taking. I'm praying for the strength to move forward and for the chance to find a job that fits.
Thank you for reading and stopping by. I hope you grasp something from this blog! Love lots (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤