I was on the verge of quitting but something keeps me holding on.
Life lately was extra emotional and exhausting. Trying to fit oneself in the edge of everything that causes me to be tired. I was literally drained, have you tried feeling extreme tiredness without doing anything? That was me a few days ago, I tend to overthink even a little information and happenings in my life. Overthinking kills my motivation to do well and excel. I even barely eat my meals accurately. I just really felt empty and lost.
Stop overthinking.
Everything seems blurry, I lost the passion to keep going. All self motivations I built was vanished. The paths aren't clear anymore so I was lost. Lost in transitions and in reality. I cried all night and questions everything that has happened in my life.
Darkness ruled over me.
The people surrounding me keep me going, pushed me to do my best.
As I have mentioned in my past blogs I'm undergoing a review for an exam. This keeps me busy for awhile. I wasn't able to write because my thoughts are clouded with worries and fears of what will happen in the future. Reviewing is difficult especially when you aren't mentally stable. I struggle to remember but I'm still trying.
This is the main building where we conducted our review sessions, while waiting for my ride back home I got time capturing its beauty at 5:00 pm. In this building I meet different people but have one same goal which is to excel and top on the upcoming exam. Warm personalities who help me conquer every struggle specifically in studying.
Now I'm starting to focus on things that are on top of my priorities. I slowly bring back energy to be happy.
I now believe that the beach helps. I got out of the house and went to the beach. The water is so clear and peaceful. At the moment I realized things started to clear my thoughts. The serene keeps me sane and intense feeling of emptiness are slowly gone.
Indeed life is beautiful. Just take time to process everything and you will be okay. It's okay not to be okay, we are humans and it's normal. If you're tired get rest. Always show up, I think the best thing that I did was show up even when I'm not okay, not in the mood, and not feeling good.
Thank you Baybay ni Apay for the warmth welcome.
You healed the part of me that no one could.
Genuine fun when the place is great.
That's all for today, see you in my next blog. Ajaaa!
I miss you all.
All images are originally mine.
Lead photo edited in Canva.Bold