Hi, my dear friends! Hindi ko na naabutan yung blog contest ng Hive PH but I still want to write an entry about revisiting my first week here, how I spent my time with Hive PH, and the tangible blessing I got from Hive (but the most meaningful blessings are the ones invisible to the eye, ehe!)
Looking back on my intro post, I intended to make it slightly different. The title seems clickbait-y, and my content reveals a side I don’t usually show. Right off the bat, I wanted to be true and vulnerable.
This doesn’t mean laying down all my cards on the table because I want you to get to know my thoughts, feelings, and experiences like a book. You open a chapter, flip the pages, and move on to the next one, hoping you learn a thing or two about the life of a 24 y/o who is challenging the norm by healing… before falling in love.
Healing before climbing up the career ladder.
Healing before deciding which investment to take.
I meant healing my past while trying to live my best present. My definition of healing might change occasionally, depending on the emotional need I am trying to fulfill. Whether that’s the need to be accepted, recognized, or understood, I’m simultaneously soothing my younger selves who went through negative experiences and had it unprocessed.
Where does Hive come in my healing?
Back in Nov 2022, I resigned from my previous job and tossed blind faith in the universe that it would catch me. Unknowingly, 
So I contacted him via Messenger. He walked me through the onboarding process, and now I have this entire online space to talk about anything.
The best part is there were no nosy Facebook Mariteses to gasp and gawk at my posts, talking behind my back and influencing my parents to be toxic.
“Oh, how ungrateful!” became “Oh, how inspiring!” here.
After a long time, I felt I could have a voice on this platform. Believe it or not, rants here are so empowering (or shitposting) because, for people with a history of trauma, who were gaslit and shamed for speaking up, it was mind-blowing to witness how others just say what they want to say.
Thus, my “therapy series” was created. I documented my therapy work through my blogs, which I was actually proud to show my psychologist last April 1 when we met online. I told him I look forward to Friday nights because I get to laugh and interact with a community filled with genuine people. The more I blogged about healing, the more I became aware of my small wins, which made me feel proud of myself.
The positive vibes don’t end there because I could see in the comments how my healing spreads like smooth butter on freshly baked bread. The comments section almost always feels warm, and they inspire each other to evaluate the mental health status in their places and minds.
Soon, the Hive rewards came through, and at first, I really didn’t pay much attention to it. I was afraid of touching it or something bad might happen. Sometimes I thought, maybe it’s time for a little treat?
The timing came sooner than I anticipated because BTS’ management announced that Suga, one of the BTS members (my ultimate bias wrecker), will have his first world tour!
You should know by now that I have been an ARMY, a BTS fan since 2017. But I wasn’t financially fortunate to buy merchandise and albums until I graduated in 2019. Even then, it took me another year to buy a light stick and album.
Now, I have the means to spend here and there – so when I looked up the Asia tour dates, I was surprised to find Indonesia, Thailand, Japan, and Singapore, but no Philippines.
That meant the only way to see him is by booking an international tour ticket. With the ticket selling on April 2, I lacked the budget to secure good seat tickets until I decided to withdraw my Hive rewards.
Special shoutout to 
Upon my calculations, Thailand was the best way to go, which also means this would be my first trip flying out of the country. Wish me luck! For sure I will enjoy leaving our hell hole of a country (momentarily) on June 9-12 😜
Final thoughts
Meeting Hive PH was one of the greatest plot twists of my 2022 back when I became their webinar speaker and now I'm part of the community since January 10.
It may seemed like they needed me the most then, but now they are the ones I could lean on for a piece of joy or rewards. Hahaha!
For these many reasons, I am grateful for everyone! I'm so glad to be your Angkan Diwata - I'll be sharing my fairy dust when I can 😆😘 Happy Anniversary Hive PH!
And with that, thank you for reading! 💜
P.S. If you have any tips about going to Thailand, please share some in the comments.
ᴬˡˡ ᵖʰᵒᵗᵒˢ ᵃʳᵉ ᵐⁱⁿᵉ ᵘⁿˡᵉˢˢ ᵒᵗʰᵉʳʷⁱˢᵉ ˢᵗᵃᵗᵉᵈ. ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵖʰᵒᵗᵒˢ ʷᵉʳᵉ ᵉᵈⁱᵗᵉᵈ ⁱⁿ ᶜᵃⁿᵛᵃ.ᶜᵒᵐ
