Losing someone who's been your precious gems to hold and treasure make you feel weak at the same time. I regret not to know early enough that one of my relatives passed away. Not just a normal relatives but she's one of my precious gems that I failed to make happy. I know it's kinda late for a drama but I know all of us can feel how I feel right now.
This day were preparing for my nanay's funeral. My mom told me that we need to hurry due to the time was running and they plan to go to church exactly 12 :00 noon to have our nanay a mass.
Still have time and we arrived at the house of my grandmother's brother where nanay put . We saw a lot of people crying even though the coffin didn't let the house yet. As one of her relatives I got emotional too but I always reminding myself that it was too awkward to cry in front of the people. And you know what's the funniest thing, my tears get back causing me to laugh in silence. My mother told me that me and my brother will have a ride for my uncle since they choose to walk and follow the truck where the coffin put.
No choice cause they insist that we can't survive the heat of the sun cause we didn't bring any hat. We arrived first at the church while the others was still at the street following the truck.
The mass started early after we and the coffin arrived at the church. I feel a little be upset to the priest due to the mass he made didn't long last atleast an hour and he forgot to bless the coffin. After he finished the mass , he turn his back and left in silent like ohhh never mind. Some of them was crying again and I still hold mine just to make my charisma look cool but deep inside I want to scream and cry in front of my nanay's coffin.
Those days, time and opportunity that I've missed when my nanay (great grandmother) was still alive , I love her smile every time we visit her at her house together with my grandmother. But due for some reason I get busy and I didn't visit again my nanay. Those times that she always told me those sweet words, like oh my god I wish I can turn back those time that she's still alive so that I can tell her that she's always be the best nanay for me. Not for bias, but she's the one we cared and also she cared for us. But those bonding and time we had are now only on memories. But atleast she didn't suffer in a long time. Will I know all of us goes to that time and we can't avoid that. Let's just cherish our love ones when their still alive . For me life if like a life of a butterfly but have differences. People suffer in a long period of time but once their done living and goes to the other path, it's like a butterfly who already go out to its cover. From being a caterpillar transformed into a beautiful butterfly and can even go where they want to go. Still beautiful but didn't last long.