I actually don't know the right words to say right now, but it feels so good to be writing here again! (w/ a new profile pic ehehe)
Yes. It started a few days ago when I began taking care of my spiritual life by reading the Bible every night from 9:00 to 11:00 in the evening. I realized that I've been a poor follower, getting too caught up in worldly things like watching movies, playing games, and, worst of all, spending too much time on Facebook watching useless, funny, and entertaining clips. I go to church every Sunday, but my lifestyle from Monday to Saturday doesn't reflect that commitment. I was lazy, easily gave in to temptations, and let my anger consume me. There are even posts and videos on Facebook about God and Christian life, but I often skip them, only to feel my conscience nagging me later. I felt lazy about praying in the morning and, when I did pray, I rushed through it. It was like the fire had gone out! I became alarmed and worried about what was happening within myself.
I said to myself, "This cannot be!" Dzah.
Thus, I did everything I could to seek God and asked Him to restore the joy of my salvation. Even though I've read Genesis many times before in similar situations, I started again from Genesis chapter 1. This time around, I wasn't just curious about the story or, as we say in Bisaya, "basa-basa lang". Instead, I approached it with a genuine thirst to seek God's voice and guidance in my life. I even wanted to read the introductions, preface, and information about the origin of the Bible version itself, but I stopped myself because I was eager to start learning immediately. Waw!
So, I just read the guide on how to read the Bible, and I was blessed by it because it provided helpful insights. One of the most important things to remember while reading the Bible is not to look for just what you want to hear. Before reading, pray and ask for God's guidance because His word is sacred, and we cannot understand it on our own. God's thoughts are not our thoughts. For this reason, before I read, I always pray to God for wisdom and knowledge, just as He gave King Solomon wisdom in resolving the issue of the two women fighting over a child.
Moving forward, the guide reminded me that I have to share what I've learned from reading the Bible with others. I looked at my notes and saw how my short reflections was never been heard. I've written a lot already, but nobody has read it. I can't just keep it to myself. I have to share it! The only place where I know I can share it freely, without asking for anyone's permission, and with a large audience is on Facebook. However, I wanted to compile it in a place where it is organized and solely for my Bible reflections and related activities. On Facebook, shared posts and other content can cover my previous posts. So, I made a website called "Verses' Echoes To My Soul". I only have two posts so far because I still get tired uploading every night. But I'm now on Chapter 8 already.
Soo, when I visited my website the other day, it brought me back to something familiar that I've also considered home because I was able to share my thoughts and feelings. It was NoStalGIIiCCcCCcc ! I typed "peakd.com" and saw all my content. I opened each post, and one that really caught my attention the most was this one called "Innocent Souls Brought Me Back To Reality". I am telling you, my feelings when I read it were intense — my heart was beating so fast, I felt joyful, nostalgic, and eager to write again. Writing has always actually meant a lot to me, I realized. It stores up beautiful memories that can melt your heart when you look back. I came to understand that I find joy in writing. I was happy and had fun sharing a part of myself that others can learn from too. Writing today feels overwhelming because I want to share so much more.
Days may come when I won't published a lot every week, I know that each piece I share, reflects a meaningful part of my journey and personal reflections. I value the opportunity to engage with a a beautiful community that appreciates these shared experiences. It all comes down to how deeply connected and impact each message can have. As I continue my journey of spiritual rediscovery and growth, I cherish the chance to connect with others who find resonance in these reflections.
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(Drafted a few days ago pa.)