[PART 1]
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[PART 2:Finale]
Rheign POV
I look around my room when I see our oldest picture, together with my friends. It's been 3 years already when I left the Philippines for my family and some personal reasons.My dad wants me to study nursing, which is very far from my passion. I love to be a successful singer and I don't have any interest in nursing. That's a fact.
"What are you doing Rheign? You got a low grade again!"
"Dad, I told you I'm not into it!"
"Just give your best in studying then you will surely love it--"
"I already did my best dad, malayong malayo po ito sa totoong gusto ko."
"No, You didn't give your best. Try harder. Look at your uncle James, he didn't have any interest in nursing before. But now, as you can see, he is a successful doctor."
That was our conversation before. Nursing is so far from what I wanted. Yes, nursing is good and professional. However, I'm into singing.
I left my band in the Philippines, I left my buddies, I left my everything. I left my true self there.
I want to find my true self again, and the Philippines is the only answer for this.
I'm wondering if the memories we created together will happen again?
I'm saying good memories not bad one.
"Nico, I can do it! You don't need to follow me there, kaya ko naman ang sarili ko."
“But you can't go to Philippines without me. That's an order from your dad.”
Nakakasakal na talaga, mahal ko naman sina mommy and daddy. Pero sana naman isipin din nila ako, kung ano talaga ang gusto ko.
“I don't know why you suddenly want to visit here.” yun ang narinig kong tanong ni Nico pagdating namin sa bahay.
"And I don't know why you followed dad's order."
"Because I will look for you,
Rheign."
"I'm not a child anymore, Nico. And besides, madami ka pa namang gagawin sa company niyo."
"No, it's okay. Uhm sige na, rest first then we will go to mall tomorrow."
I unpacked my things, shower, and rest later.
"Naku Rheign buti naman at nagbasyon ka narin sa wakas! Tagal mong hindi dumalaw. Buti ang dad and mom mo twice a year na pumpunta dito." Manang said while unpacking my things.
"I have my reason manang. And many things had happen that's why."
I said in a tired and silence voice.
"Madami ng nangyari Rheign. Successful na si Calli ngayon."
I'm happy for him. But--
I don't know why until now,I'm still affected everytime they call his name. And all the memories are flashing again.
It's hard to forget someone you once loved.
My tears started to kiss my cheeks again. I miss my friends, but I don't know if they still see me as their friend after what I did.
"Take that if you want."
Naalala ko kasi si Calli dati. He didn't want me to put red lipstick. Too attractive daw, silly.
'Haha, selos lang siya ata noon e.'
"Hey, are you gonna buy that, or you'll just watch it there?"
Bigla akong nagulat, nasa mall pala kami.
"Oh, no no. May naalala lang ako."
"Ah, I see."
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Calli's POV
It's Saturday morning. Me and Alexis planned to buy some stuff here at mall. I am planning to buy new guitar, there's a latest guitar design that I want so I take time to visit it here.
“I don't know why you still need this guitar, knowing that you still have new at your house.”—Alex
“Wala. I just want it,you know? New guitar, new feelings of excitement.”
“Naks. So this blue guitar? Naalala ko noon couple guitar kayo ni Rheign--”
“Tchh. Just don't mention her name. ”
“Kunwaring bitter,naku! Kilala kita Calli. You still think about her.”
Sana hindi ko nalang sinama si Alex diba? Sana nanatili nalang siya sa opisina niya,para tahimik akong mag palamig dito.
Syempre pinili ko yung latest design ng favorite guitar ko, with the color of ocean blue.
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Rheign POV
Ilang araw na rin ako dito sa Pinas. Lagi akong lumalabas at nagpapahangin mag-isa. Madami na kasing pasyalan dito. Si Nico naman ay madalas sa mga kaibigan niya dito sa Pinas. Niyaya niya ako but I refused, I'm not that close to them as my friends. Friends? They still see me as their friend pa kaya?
What are actually the reason why I left?
“Choose one Hija. Leave Calli and the band in my own company. Or leave this company together with Calli? You know how much he love music, right? And you also know what's going on between our family, that's a big disgrace in my company to see one Verizon,like you.”—Calli's dad made me chose.
To summarize, his father want me to leave the band dahil sa issue ng aming family.
I broke up with him, dahil ayaw ng both sides namin ang namamagitan sa amin. But of course I want him to follow his dream, to become a successful singer someday,glad that he is now!
If I chose to leave his father company together with Calli then that's a selfishness of me, that's why I didn't do that. So I left alone, without Calli.
If my love for him means leaving him, then I will.
My parents want Nico for me. Not Calli.
But I cleared all things to Nico, thankfully he understands.
My father want me to study nursing, so I tried too. Even my heart is for singing. While I'm studying nursing in abroad, I do singing too. Pinagsabay ko ang pag aaral at pagkanta. Kahit na mas namiss kong kumanta dito sa Pinas.
Madaming company ang kumukuha saakin noon dito, pero mas pinili namin ni Calli noon sa mismong company ng dad niya, without knowing may issue pala ang both family namin. Noong lumabas ang issue na yon,ako na ang kusang umalis sa company ng dad niya, without telling him the real reason.
Naisip ko lang,kung babalik ako sa pagkanta sa Pinas kukunin ba nila ako, ng ibang company?
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Calli POV
Two sleepless night. Nalaman kong nandito si Rheign sa Pilipinas isang buwan na ang lumipas!
And worse, magkasama sila ng boyfriend niya.
I saw them last night at the terrace of their house, together, huh? That means mag-asawa na kaya sila?
Worst, Nakita kong niyakap siya ni Niko!
I felt jealous, that's my girl, bro.
Sinisi ko ang sarili ko,sana sinundan ko nalang siya sa abroad noon? Pero diko naman alam kung saan sila nag punta.
Wala akong nagawa. I just let her go. I left broken while she's happy?
Sabi niya, she love some else before she leave the country. And I found out she's with Nico,sa abroad. I also noticed her parents want Nico as their son-in-law!
If my love for her means letting her go, and be with someone else..then--
Uh! Hindi ko kaya!
Is it me? Who didn't move on yet? I'll be a liar to myselft if I say I moved on, even I'm not!
“Kasal na kaya sila? How dare she is. Leaving us, just to be with Nico.”-Hindi napigilan ni Xheiyin ang magalit kay Rheign.
“One month na siyang nandito, di talaga niya naisip na dalawin tayo?”-Dagdag pa ni Xheiyin.
“Wait Xhieyin. Think about it huh. What if she miss us?”—Ang sabi ni Felix na kinagulat ng lahat.
“Ha?” gulat na tanong ng lahat. I'm just here hearing them talking about her.
“Simple lang, anong babalikan niya dito sa Pinas,wala naman ang family niya dito, hindi naman siya nag aaral dito ng nursing. Siguro namiss niya tayo including your band, diba Calli?"
Bat naman nadamay ang band? Kasalanan niya din naman. Kung hindi siya umalis,edi kasama ko parin siya, sa band.
“Impossible, she's happy with Nico now. I don't think she miss us, and the band.”
“Just saying the possibility.”- Felix
“Why did she left the band again?”-Si Alexis na kanina pa nag iisip.
“She left because she's inlove with Nico, and they went abroad.” I said in a bored tone.
“Silly, what kind of love does Nico have for her, if she wanted her to quit the band and go abroad? Nico must know that Rheign love music very much.” Komento ni Vhougn habang nag kakape.
“Nico probably know that.”- Si Xheiyin habang nag iisip.
Simply, Rheign left because she want to study nursing. She love Nico and maybe they married abroad. She left the band she love so much.. yan ang hindi ko maintindihan.
“Huy san ka pupunta?”-Tanong ni Alex, dumiretso ako sa garahe at agad nagtungo sa sasakyan ko. Di na ako nagpaalam ng maayos kasi madaming tanong sa utak ko.
5 minutes lang ang layo ng company ni dad. Glad he doesn't have clients now.
“Oh what brings you here, son?”
“Dad, can I know what was the reason why Rheign left the band?”
“Huh? Rheign Verizon?” kita ko sa mata ni Dad ang pagtataka.
“Your ex girlfriend?” tumango ako bilang sagot.
“What do you think the reason why?”- Pabalik na tanong ni dad.
“Syempre dahil nag abroad siya at may mahal na siyang iba. Pero ang gulo e, diko maintindihan. Kung talalang mahal niya ang pag kanta, bakit niya sinakripisyo yun para sa isang tao, kay Nico?”
Dad laugh hardly! I can't find any clue, he's just laughing out loud which makes me feel annoyed at him!
“All this time Calli, you didn't know the real reason?And sinong Nico? I don't remember she chose Nico, huh?”
“Chose? Dad? What kind if choices is that?”
“Why don't you asked her, instead?”
“Dad, I'm begging you! “ halos mapasigaw ako sa loob ng opisina! I'm desperate to know what exactly the reason why!
“All I thought, she said to you what we talked about that night. I gave her choices but I'm glad she chose better.”
Is it connected to the past issues of our family? Rheign is Verizon and dad don't want to involve to any Verizon in this town!
“There's only two choices, son. Leave the company alone. Or leave the company together with you. Glad she chose the right one. Alam ko namang pipiliin niyang umalis mag isa, kaysa madamay at bumagsak ka. Hmm”
I Clenched my Fist. And gritted my teeth!
What kind of father is he?
Lumabas ako sa opisina bago pa ako mawalan ng respeto sa sariling ama! How dare he is involving the past in present?!
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Rheign POV
Isang malamig na umaga ang bumungad sa akin. 8 am na noong nagising ako, kung hindi pa ako tinawag ni manang baka tulog pa rin ako.
I was planning to call Xhie and Laika this day. But I don't know what to do, to say.
Lumabas ako ng room at gulat na gulat sa nakita!
Si Calli nandito sa bahay!
Nakaupo siya sa sofa. Bihis na bihis. Naka white t-shirt, black maong pants and white sneakers.
Teka? Anong ginagawa niya dito?
“Mannaaanggg?” patanong yun, kung kung bakit niya pinapasok si Calli! First meeting namin to tas ganito pa ako? Nakapantulog!
“Anong ginagawa mo dito?” nagtataka ako. Bigla biglang sumsulpot!
“Asan yung BF mo?” seryoso niyang tanong at palinga linga sa likod ko.
Natahimik ako dahil wala naman akong Boyfriend, diba? If he's saying, Nico? Then what?
“Wala akong bf. Teka bat nandito ka?”
“After how many years yan lang tatanungin mo sakin, Rheign?” he said in a serious tone.
“Eat your breakfast first. I'll wait for you. Pinagpaalam na kita kay manang kaya bilisan mo.” dagdag nito.
Niyaya ko siyang kumain pero tapos na raw siya. Nanood lang siya sa TV at pinag lalaruan ang Ipad na nasa tabi niya. Ipad ko yun ha!
“I thought you deleted this videos. I'm glad you saved it.”
Nakita niya ang mga saved videos ko! At duet namin together lahat ng nandon! Ibang album pa yung kaming lahat na magkakaibigan.
Tahimik akong lumabas ng bahay, tahimik din siya. Sinuot niya leather jacket at cap niya. Syempre sikat na siya.
“Oh? Quins Park?”
Biglang nagbalik ang mga ala-ala naming dalawa dito. Quins Park, kung saan kami laging pumupunta, kapag practice o may problema, dito ko rin siya sinagot noon, and I left him here too.
Naupo ako sa silong matayog na puno, malilim na dito at may mga benches at tables na rin. Dati kasi nag dadala pa kami ng mat e. Gusto ko itong lugar tahimik at mahangin.
“Remember this place?" He said coldly while seeing down the views. The cold breeze wrapped me.
“How can I forget this kind of place.”
“When you left me here alone that day, I didn't went home. I just stayed here and let the night passed. I didn't accept you love some else back then.”
“That's not true, Calli. I only loved you, loving you.”
“I didn't accept it then. You left me wrapped with loneliness and bitterness. I didn't know what the right things to do back then."
"Should I follow you sa abroad? Hindi ko naman alam kung saan kayo pumunta. But even If I followed you, I realized you love someone else. So all I have to do that time is to let you go---”
“Kala ko nakamove on na ako. When our friends talked about you, I got bitter and when I saw you with Nico the other night hugging each other, I felt jealous.” -Napayuko siya habang nagsasalita
Biglang tumakas ang mga traydor kong luha habang tinitignan siya.
Hindi naman naging kami ni Nico. I just lied to Calli na may mahal akong iba para sana makalimutan na niya ako. At makahanap na siya ng iba.
Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sa kanya ang totoo noon. Malapit na siyang maging successful that time and I didnt want to ruin it.
Nico is just kind. And nilinaw ko na noon sakanya na hanggang friend lang maibibigay ko sakanya. Thankfully, he understands it.
“You know, I felt guilty. I didn't know that my dad did that things to you.”
Napatigil ako, alam na niya?
“You sacrificed your own happiness, the band, just to let me become successful, Rheign?”
Yes. Because I love you, Calli. And if that's what my love can do then I will do.
Hindi ako nagsasalita. Pinipigilan ko ang mga luhang natitira. Gusto kong humikbi pero ayaw kong mapansin niya ito.
“Do you think I'm successful now, Rheign?”
Tumango na lamang ako bilang pag-sang ayon.
“No Rhiegn. I'm not successful yet. I will only become successful if you're with me. You're my inspiration, Rheign.”
Napatingin na ako sa kanya, namumula na rin ang kanyang mga mata.
Traydor ang mga luha ko. Napahikbi ako sa harapan niya.
“Now, Rheign. Do you still want to come back in singing with the band?”
“Calli?” gulat na tanong ko. Ngayong alam na niya ang tunay na rason kung bakit ko siya iniwan, bakit niya tatanungin ito saakin? Alam niyang hindi pwede.
“Calli hindi pwede. Kung babalik ako sa pag kanta baka sa ibang band and company ako makakapasok.”
“I'm asking you, Rheign, do you want to come back?”
“I want. But not in your dad's company, Calli. Not in our old band.”
“Okay.”-Tanging sagot lang nito.
“You have two choices back then Rheign. I wish you chose the other one, leaving the company with me.”
“Calli! Hinding hindi ko gagawin yun. Sayang ang pinaghirapan mo kung iyon ang pinili ko.”
Tuloy tuloy pa rin ang agos ng aking mga luha mula mata hanggang pisngi!
“If loving you means leaving you, then I will do. That was I did.”
“I'm so sorry Rheign. I can't accept you sacrificed your own happiness for me. Sorry-”
He hugged me and wiped my tears.
“Sorry.” hanggang ngayon iyon parin ang tanging binubulong niya.
It's not easy but I did it for him so I'm still happy.
“I didn't know you are the most affected. If only I have known.”
“No Calli. Please don't say sorry. It's all for you, please.”
I didn't expect that our first meeting turned like this. I miss him. I miss my friends. I hope they understand why I lied to them. Di ko naman sila masising magalit sa akin.
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Calli POV
Isang week na rin ang lumipas. I decided what is right. And i know it is.
“Calli! It's all over the news! What are you doing!”—Si Xheiyin na kanina pa salita ng salita.
Nandito silang lahat sa bahay. They are wondering to what I did.
I left my dad's company. And the band. I want to start again together with Rheign. At kung malalaman iyon ng mga kasama namin sa banda baka gusto rin nilang umalis sa company.
Not to brag, but the band is popular. But not as popular since Rheign left the band. They are always wanting Rheign to come back. That's the truth.
I was planning to renew my contract in my father's company pero dahil nalaman kong ganun ang ginawa niya kay Rheign, mas pipiliin kung umalis kaysa maging successful sa sarili niyang company. I have my reasons too why I left dad's company.
“Calli!” halos mapatalon ako sa gulat. Nakita kong may galit sa kanyang mukha.
“Oh..Rheign?!”-Laika, nagulat din.
“What are you doing?! Is this the reason why asked me that day?” halos maiyak na siya. Bumaba na rin ang ibang kaibigan na nasa 2nd floor. Gulat na gulat sila sa mga pangyayari. I didn't told them that I already talked to Rheign.
“Teka, Teka nga! Rheign bat ngayon ka lang nagpakita? At may kinalaman ka ba dito, bakit umalis si Calli sa company ng daddy niya?!”
“You already hurt him, and now, you show up here like nothing happened, huh? Pagkatapos mo kaming iwan para lang sa lalaking yun, kay Nico?!”
“Xhieyin hindi naman sa ganon, please let me explain my side.”- Si Rheign na nalilito kung anong uunahin.
“Rheign please sit. Xhieyin, calm down please.” suway ko kay Xhieyin.
“I have my reasons why I left dad's company, And Ofcourse you're one of them.”
“Calli! That's your dream. Paano na ang band? Leaving the band is a big lose to them!”- Rheign.
“Ohhh what's happening?”- bulong ni Laika.
“Pagkatapos mang iwan magpapakita ulit.” mas lalo akong nainis sa sinabi ni Xhieyin!
“Shut up Xhieyin! Rheign left because of me! Because of my dad! She sacrificed her own happiness just for me to become successful! I want to start all over again not in my dad's company.”
Natigilan silang lahat sa sinabi ko. Gulat na gulat ang makikitang bakas sa mukha nila.
I shared all to them.
Umiiyak si Laika, sa nangyayari. Ganon si Xhieyin, naiintindihan ko naman siya pero not now. Sana tumahimik nalang sila.
Nagwalk out ang umiiyak na si Xhieyin sa natuklasan, sinamahan siya ni Vhougn.
“Sorry, sorry. I didn't mean to disturb you. I didn't know you are all here.” Sabi ni Rheign na umiiyak.
“Rheign please, stop saying sorry.” pagkasabi non ay agad ko siyang niyakap. I want her to feel calm and I want her not to question my decision cause it's all for her. “You already did too much for me.” I caressed her back.
“Please, hayaan mo akong bumawi sayo.”
“You are really stubborn, Calli.” sabi niya habang nagpupunas ng luha. I wiped her tears with my bare hands and thankfully she's happy now.
Niyakap din siya ni Felix at Alex. Kelangan pa ba yun? Hayst bahala nga, I know they miss Rheign already.
“Sus! Ang bigat ng titig ha, yakap lang yun boi. Don't get jealous wala naman kayong label e.”
Isang malutong na palaka! I know, you don't need to tell me, Laika!
Medyo nainis ako sa sinabi niya. Wala akong nagawa, yumakap na rin siya kay Rheign.
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Rheign POV
“I really miss you Rheign. Hindi ko alam na ang hirap pala ng pinagdaanan mo.”—Bulong ni Lai habang yakap yakap ako.
“I miss you too, Lai. I was planning to visit you pero napangunahan ng mga pangyayari. I didn't expect to see you all here.”
“Mabuti nga at sumugod ka pa. Baka kung hindi, hindi pa namin malalaman lahat ngayon. Sorry Rheign, wala kami sa tabi mo noong mga panahong kailangan mo ng kaibigan.”
Hindi pa rin kumalalas si Lai sa pagkakayakap. Hinaplos ko ang likod niya para tahanin siya.
“Im fine now, Lai. I'm happy to see you all this day. I hope you forgive me for lying to all of you.”
Kumalas si Lai sa pagkakayap at hinarap ako.
“No no, we are sorry for judging you. And for hating the decision you made, without knowing the real reason why. You are so strong Rheign.”
Ngumiti ako sa kanya. Nginitian ko rin ang boys na nasa harapan namin. They all agreed to what Lai said.
Pero hindi parin ako makapaniwala sa desisyon ni Calli! Sure ba talaga siya?
Nakita kong papasok na si Vhougn pero wala pa si Xhieyin.
Nag aalala ako kay Xhieyin. What if hindi niya ako mapatawad? Hindi pa rin siya pumapasok.
Ngumiti si Vhougn saakin at niyakap. I really miss all of them!
“I miss you Rheign. Happy to see you here.” niyakap ko din siya pabalik. Pero pansin ko ang mabibigat na titig ni Calli. Alam ko ang mga titig na yun. Nagseselos ba siya? Kumalas ako sa pagkayakap.
“I miss you too Vhougn! I'm worried about Xhieyin, where is she?”
“Haha, don't worry about her. She's just being dramatic, you know she misses you so much that's why.”
Pagkasabi niya non ay agad ng pumasok si Xhieyin. Deretso siya sa akin at niyakap ako. Isang napakahigpit na yakap. Halos maiyak ako sa nararamdaman, this is what I miss. I miss her and every one in this friendship.
“Ang daya daya mo.” sabi niya at humikbi ulit.
“I miss you so much Rheign! Sorry earlier. Sana mapatawad mo ako. Ang hirap kasing tanggapin noon na umalis ka. Akala ko tuluyan mo ng iiwan kami.”
“Hussh, don't say that. I never forget you all.”
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Calli POV
Mula noong araw na yun, nabuo kami ulit. We forgave each other and now we all started the new pages of our lives. Rheign accepted to work with me again, and I'm glad, it's my pleasure. Hindi naging mahirap ang pagiging popular ng band namin, lalo na ngayon at meron si Rheign, ang pinakahihintay ng mga fans namin.
Nasa isang practice session kami ngayon, syempre me and Rheign are the singers.
“OMG! Calliiii!!” agad na yumakap si Vhia sa akin. Siya yung new member of band.
“Good morning! I miss you already!” sambit pa nito habang yakap yakap ako.
“Good morning, uh excuse me.” sabi ko at agad na kumalas sa pagkayap. Sinundan ko si Rheign, lumabas ng room.
“Rheign. Where are you going? Magsisimula na yung practice.”- pagtatanong ko rito.
“Uh, jan lang magpapahangin. Ah wag mo na akong sundan, nakakahiya sa GF mo.”
“Tch hahaha.” ewan ko bat bigla akong natawa haha.
“Hahaha. Silly.”
“Don't laugh at me!”
“O.Okay I won't.” pero napapangiti parin ako. Ganitong ganito siya noong kami pa, kapag nagseselos siya.
“Tara na sa loob, magsisimula na o.” sabi ko kahit isang oras pa naman bago magsimula.
I'm just following her walking on the corridors. I'm smiling while following her.
“Hey don't follow me!”
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Rheign POV
Naiinis ako sa tuwing nakikita kong may babaeng kasama si Calli. Kanina pa yan ah.
I'm annoyed at the girl earlier at the field, now that we're here at practice room I'm annoyed again!
May payakap pa yung babae. Nakakainis kelangan ba ng I miss you? Tas yakap?!
I walked out, sinundan pala ako ng isang to. Ang nakakainis pa ay tumatawa tawa siya.
“I said don't follow me!”-pagsuway ko ulit sa kanya.
“Rheigna Althea Verizon” Hinawakan niya ang palapulsuan ko at agad akong niyakap. Isang mahigpit na yakap yun. Pakiramdam ko tumatakbo ang puso ko.
Naguunahan ata ang mga dugo sa puso ko. Sa sobrang lakas ng tibok nito'y baka maramdaman pa niya.
“ I want to repeat all the good memories with you, Rheign.”
I don't understand why I suddenly feel tears on my cheeks.
“I still love you, still you, Rheign.”
“If the memories will repeat itself, I hope the good memories only.” dagdag pa niya, wala akong masabi. Kusang tumatakas ang mga luha sa aking mata.
“Please comeback to me, Rheign.”
“Calli, I still love you too. You know that I can do everything just for you.”
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Calli POV
I'm so happy now. Rheign is with me. And the friends are supporting us. I'm really bless to have a friends like them, a friends na itinuring kong kapatid, kapamilya.
Masayang masaya sila na nagkabalikan kami ni Rheign. Akala ko noon mag isa ako, pero hindi pala. I have my friends and I have Rheign, whom I love.
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Rheign POV
This is what I trully love, be with my real friends who understands me. I'm happy na sila ang kaibigan ko. Hindi ako nagsising makipagkaibigan sa kanila.
We forgave each other and started new journey with new memories, as good as before.
Sometimes there are misunderstandings but that's just normal in the circle of friends.
Thanks to Calli. He helped me to find my happiness again, the band, and the music.
How he treats me made me fall in love with him more and more. I'm glad we are together again after how many tragedies came in our lives.
End.
