It's been years that I felt this and being inside the four walls of a room having a color white background. I never thought that I'll be admitted again. And I can't stop thinking and asking...
Why now?
What's happening this time?
When will this be over?
Today, I was admitted in the hospital due to so much pain in the right side of my stomach. I am thinking it might be appendix. I felt the fear of everything but I kept on praying.
The pain started yesterday. I thought it's just a normal diarrhea or whatso because some of my board mates experience but I didn't have bowel movements, only pain I felt. So much pain that I can't almost endure. That's why I decided to go home. I went home together with my cousin. When I came at the house, the pain is already unbearable the reason I hugged my mom and sister asking them for a help. I throw up and was so pale that's why my decided to bring me in the hospital. And here I am.
We waited for the result. I kept praying that everything are just fine. I kept praying that hopefully it's not appendicitis but my prayers wasn't answered. The result was out and the doctor said I need to undergo operation because my appendix was already open (Pumutok na daw). I was trembling and crying. It may be sounds gay and weak but i just can't help it because I know my parent's situation. We need to find 14,000.00 Pesos for the operation. I just don't know where to find it because my father don't have a work same with my sister who's struggling now. I know she's crying now for my situation, our situation. I don't want to be a burden but I don't know why it's happening.
My sister told me that I should not withdraw my first month earnings here in Hive, but I don't have a choice but to withdraw some of my earning for my hospital bills and other medicine to buy. I hope God will answer my prayer that we can find 14k pesos for my operation. I am sorry for giving my parents so much pain and problem this time. It was like a throwback when I had experienced having a dengue the past 4 years. But I know God is good, he will not neglect and left me in this kind of trial and difficulty that I and my family were facing. I will still be strong. For my hive journey, I will still continue and I will do my best to make it through as I win this problem that I'm facing.
That would be all everyone because I am having a hard time typing and my stomach is still painful. I just don't know when will I undergo an operation. I am just here looking at my mom who's with me. I don't want seeing her in pain because of me.
Thank you for reading my short post today.