As a kid with a wide imagination, I really imagined a lot of things back then, from the romance and action genres to comedy and drama. I also love to imagine myself winning in a lottery, you know, those impossible scenarios, haha. But my favorite genre is romance, of course, like those sweet romance stories with a handsome and rich man who falls in love with a poor girl trope—something like that. It's really just fun to imagine these kinds of things. Another favorite of mine was imagining myself working my way up the ladder of success. Getting a nice job, my dream house, and a wallet that never runs out. Having this kind of imagination that I thought was closer to reality helps me a lot during tough times back then.
Seriously, my imagination till now is still as wide as I was as a kid. Until now, I still imagine myself winning in a lottery and living the life I wished I had before. It's fun having an imagination like this, it helps me cope with whatever bad situation I am in. And with my imagination as a kid, I thought I would be able to make even one dream come true today. Although I am living comfortably right now and I can eat three meals a day, still, it's far from what I pictured myself as an adult when I was just a kid.
And seriously, I don't really need much riches, all I want is a happy home, a wallet that never runs out of money, and a life where I don't have to think about where to get cash to buy basic necessities. I still get a headache today whenever I think about this. Like the other day, I had already used up all of my sanitary pads, and I needed to buy them now. But then, I have to set them aside for now because I still have things I have to get first, I have to prioritize, in other words.
Back when I was a kid, I thought if I became an adult, I could get all that I wanted easily, but it didn't mean that I want all this alcohol, not this, (≧▽≦). As a shy person, it's actually really hard. Although I tried, but only once. And I never tried again. And now I am happily stuck at home with my oldies. I am not complaining, though. As a shy person that easily gets intimidated with everything, this is a good thing for me. But because I don't have a regular job, I can't just buy what I want. It's always needs versus needs.
But if I will compare my life today and back in 2015 to 2018, my life today is much easier. Back then I was really just a palamunin at home, haha. It only changed in 2019 when I discovered this crypto blogging site called read.cash. That site really helps me a lot during the pandemic too. I was able to save up too, and now I have a small savings. Then there's Hive, which has been helping me a lot until now. Thanks to that, I can help at home using half of my rewards here. I can say I have "ambag" now, or contribution at home. Lol
Even though my financial status right now is far from what I dreamed of, I am still happy and contented. But if I'm given a chance, of course, I will try to change that. But for now, I am happy with how things are right now. I'm not living the best of the bestest life, but I'm living happily, and that's just alright, no?
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