Despite closing my eyes and wanting to sleep, I found myself awake thirty minutes later. It's like my body doesn't want to sleep anymore. This is not the first time that I encountered this sleeping problem. Every time I stay up till four o'clock in the morning, I always have trouble sleeping. It feels like my body is so active already even though I haven't had any sleep at all.
I do not have the most organized sleeping routine for so many reasons. One of them is studying, I stay up late at night studying just to get high scores in exams but in return? It is like killing me. I wouldn't blame my bad sleeping routine all on studying, sometimes I just don't have the discipline to myself to the extent of using my phone extensively. One major reason that I think I developed this is because of the pandemic. Since during those times I was not spending most of my energy during the day, what happened was I had a lot of energy left making me up all night.
Since then, I have never been able to fix my sleeping routine because I lack self-discipline. It hurts to admit but this is my truth. I tried a couple of times fixing it but I always ended up failing in the end. Although it is not really a major problem with my parents, it is a problem for me. I saw the negative effects of staying up all night and having no sleep at all, I was always annoyed and irritated by almost everything that surrounded me and what's worst was absorbing the information when I was studying was already a difficult thing to do.
Yesterday, I had enough of my sleeping problems that night that I had to order melatonin at four o'clock in the morning. I told myself that this problem should stop already because it is already affecting my physical and mental health and my performance in school is not as good as it was before. Literally, I had to come to school last Monday without sleep at all. Fortunately, my friend had melatonin in his apartment and I asked for some. I drank melatonin at 11:30 last Monday and it felt so good. I had a very good sleep although I still had problems sleeping that night because it was too hot.
To be honest, I never wanted this for myself, to drink melatonin. Because I am afraid that one day I'll be dependent on it. But right now, I can say that I'll have the discipline to take this.
Photo is not mine. All credits to Swanson Vitamins Philippines' Shopee Store for this photo.
Anyway, I'll end this blog now by sharing the melatonin that I purchased. It is from Swanson, I tried it already and it works for me. How about you, have you tried drinking melatonin? What is your advice? Write it in the comment section.