There is no such thing as easy job. No word as shortcuts in life.
Twenty-two, turning twenty-three in 7 months time. There were a lot of realizations I got after being able to choose the path where my dreams led me after years of literally crawling myself up in the madness life had made me where I am today.
Such thing that made me exhausted for three to four days a week, but makes me feel alive.
Nursing, is not my ultimate goal. But growing up, I've never really found myself loving any other profession than serving and caring for people.
The level of understanding, and the wide perception that developed through me overtime made me feel so proud of myself. I felt very able to do things and to love the little step that I am making everyday. The little achievements, and meeting people. Life has been too good to me that sometimes there were hardships that were too romanticized by many when more people who are in really struggling were not visibly showing it.
Inside the hospital, I encounter people with big dreams. I was amazed every time I hear their stories and at some point they grow in to me. I love hearing stories, and how their perception opens up a new world I failed to see. Which I realized, which others failed to see.
People in the hospital require minimal to critical care. But deeply, they needed people who genuinely would want to hear their stories, and acknowledge their feelings.
Knowing, it makes me tear up silently leaving their rooms in a while of short chatter. Of how welcoming they could be, and how grateful they are of hearing people understanding on where they stand. I always ask myself, that I am slowly making my way up into communicating deeper with the world. out in the crowd where in the past, I was too afraid to take action, go out, mingle, and explore the best possible way it could offer.
As a young teen, given her wings to soar up high. With my parents allowing me enjoy every bits of my adulting phase the way I wanted to be and to be not super strict with myself like I used to be when studying, I am very much aware that life has been a cycle to me, a life that gave me choices to love the wonders that is new to me.
As I took a stroll inside the hospital alleys. The transcending amount of people differ from each side, where we got to know who and what they are really seeking upon arriving in the hospital. As too, when I set my foot outside the hospital, I got to see how life been such as a struggle for most people barely surviving the reality of life.
Life as I see it now is still blurry. I am still in the middle of knowing what more to come and what to expect in the coming days. There were a lot of days that my passion will always lead to the path I always wanted to go- caring people.
Somedays forward, the exhaustion will get me. But the gratitude that the people expressed every time they were discharged out of the hospital will always be a reminder to me, that no matter what comes ahead, whatever life throws at me in this moment that I got to question the things I enjoy.
Nothing will be easy, and not everything will be visible in my naked eye. I will continue to learn about life, and relearn what is forgotten, and unlearn the norms that were no longer healthy to hold unto.
As I said, I am a growing tree. There is more to my growth, and I wished it could be in the coming days and forth.
| March 27, 2023 | ✦urpedianurse✦ |
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