As what Miss Moira dela Torre said, "For new ones to be able to come, old ones must leave. For new leaves to be able to grow, old leaves must fall."
Good day everyone! How's your day? Its volleyren20 again. As for today's blog, I came to decide to share with you my love story. Yes! You heard or read it right. Its been three days then. Due to typhoon PaengPh, we had a power outage, the reason why I wasn't to publish any blogs recently. Anyways, without any further ado, bare with me as I narrate my story of love and how we face the ups and downs of our relationship.
<Story Time>
We live in the same town and barrio. We went in the same elementary school too, but he was two years ahead of me. As what I have remembered, we performed a school presentation before but sad to say, he was not my partner at that time.
Fast forward, we went to different High Schools. He went to a school near in town, while I went to a school near in our barrio. We barely talk at that time because like I said he was two years ahead of me and to tell you the truth I was afraid of him. And I felt that I was out of his league.
Though, I really am interested to know him especially that we are just neighbors, I just ended up hiding my true intentions of having an interest to know him. Or I should say, I do have a crush on him. But it turns out, he didn't felt the same way.
He loves to play Basketball and I do love playing Volleyball. There are times that we came across each other in our plaza.
Years ago, one of my cousins, together with her parents who live in Surigao came to visit us, the whole family. To my surprise I m noticed that Rhed got an interest to know her. The same with the other "bagitos" in our barrio. Well, honestly speaking my cousin is beautiful like a goddess. And honestly, I was affected, emotionally. And as crazy at it is, I became their bridge to become close to each other. (S*cks) Though he fell for her, its just fine with me at least I can talk to him now casually.
Hiding my true feelings for him was one of the hardest things I have done. I fell for someone who didn't feel the same way.
I think I was in my early days during fourth year high school at that time. And for your information, I have already experienced a boy-girl relationships. Well, at that time I am already a single lady. What I have in mind was to merely focus on my studies, so that I can graduate with flying colors.
I am happy to see him and talk to me though it was all about my cousin. Anything about her. I was actually pretty much close to her to the point that I almost got an scolding with my cousins parents because they thought I left her all alone. They didn't know that Rhed and their lovely daughter are having a moment together. But of course, I have saved their a*ses. Then the day came that they need to go home already. Their vacation has finally over. And I felt sad about it and Rhed surely was affected by that too.
It was later months of year 2014, there was a sitio fiesta celebration in one of our neighbor barangays. I am fond attending a disco before, so I went there together with my friends and other cousins. Rhed was there too. And there's this moment that Rhed and I had a serious conversation about my cousin, about anything that came across our minds. Suddenly, Rhed held my hand. It could be that he was a bit drunk or it was just his way of diverting his attention from thinking about my cousin. "Ayys! Hindi na pumalag ang lola niyo uie, siyempre may feelings tayo." After the disco, he insisted to take me home. At that's how our story started...
It was May 22, 2014, Rhed and I are officially in a relationship but we are not legal.
I mean, both our parents didn't know that we are in a relationship. I even remembered this scene that he firstly denied me to his friend, but took it back. We just met up every late afternoons in the barrio proper. At that time, my parents were still strict when going outside so I ended up lying to them. I will only said that I will play Volleyball together with my friends. "Secrets will surely be revealed." Some our friends knew about us, same goes with Rhed's mom. But with mine, they still don't have an idea.
Being in that kind of situation, We both were contented enough. What matters to us, we can be together. But seriously, we don't have a very nice photo together because I don't want to have a picture with him at that time to avoid unnecessary circumstances.
Like I said, secrets will surely be revealed. It came to a moment that one of Aunt went to the house where Rhed and I had our meet ups and she saw us talking together while lying down. (We're merely just talking) I was very nervous and didn't say anything. And few minutes after she left us out, one of my cousins came and said that my mama was very mad, and told her to inform me that I should go home right away. When I arrived home, my mama welcomed me with a loud voice while scolding. She kept on asking me about what happen, and I told her that Rhed and I were just talking. At that very moment, my papa got a fever but he also gave me a scolding but not the same as my mama did. Then after that, they requested him to be at home. I don't have the face to look out for him while he was being interrogated by my mama, my grandfather on my mother side, and my mama's brother-in-law. I don't even know what they have said to him at that time. I was just in my room feeling the guilt and shame. Then after they had a serious conversation with him, he started to visit me at home instead of doing what we used to do.
Later days after that controversial scene, people were spreading a rumor that Rhed and I were together. Like, a live-in or considered as husband and wife. (Like what!?) I was very shocked. Even my teachers and some of my classmates and close friends were kept on asking me if its true. And I said, it a big NO! Even those people who live in our neighbor barangays kept spreading the same rumor.
While attending at school, I heard them say,
"She didn't even wait for them to graduate."
"She's too young, maybe she's pregnant."
"What a waste!"
"Why she dared to rebel knowing she's an only child?"
That really gives me the chills. I even came to that point that I wanted to drop out all of my subjects. My grades were really affected but that false rumors, same with my extracurricular activities too. All I have in situation was my mama and papa who still encourages me to continue and told me to just let it through. Meanwhile, I was looking out for Rhed but he didn't even bother to ask me what's going on and how was I? I was very disappointed and frustrated. HE LEFT ME IN THIN AIR!
Months after, I was able to handle the situation even without Rhed. Though I felt really dismayed about him leaving me without a word, I was then relieved that I am able to passed the trial with the help of my parents and some of real friends. As for Rhed, I was really looking for a good timing to talk to him to have a closure but I wasn't able to that, especially when I went to college and found out that he got a new girl. I just told myself, maybe he was not really meant for me. That maybe, we are not destined to be together. And with that, I started to look one for myself, but I didn't able to move forward even after I had my recent ex-boyfriend. Just like that, our story ended.
Despite what happen, I still considered it a lovely one.
Like what Vice Ganda said, "You can't consider it love if you don't experience pain. Love is like a double-edged sword, you can be happy and you can be hurt." Unexpectedly and unintentionally, Rhed and I had to separate ways.
SEVEN YEARS AFTER...
Never in wildest dreams that I will come to the point that I will be able to meet my long lost love again. I met Rhed after I had an unfortunate break up with my recent ex-boyfriend, (six years relationship but he ended up cheating on me).
May 09, 2022, it was the National Election and I was one of the Paralegals at that time. To my surprise, he was there. I mean, Rhed was there on the election day. Like, I really don't have an idea that he will have his vacation at that time. May 10, 2022, we had our first conversation. Around 1 am, I came to read a message from Rhed and I replied "tagay tana" (let's have some drink) because I thought he was with my neighbors who had a drink after they received a money from the election. As I go on scrolling, he suddenly called me. We had a long conversations, (random topics). We didn't notice that it was very late. The following days after that, he started to sent me a messages and then we had video calls. At that time I was still in a miserable state, especially because I still got to face my ex-boyfriend and the "mga marites" out there regarding the break up thing. And Rhed really gave me the comfort. He visited me at home and I am able to share with him those things that I can't share to my family. We also discussed all the things that had happened to us years ago.
He was kind of shocked when he got to know the truth that I was miserable when we broke up before. I confronted him that I felt I was left in the thin air. That I almost drop out all of my subjects, and that I was hurt knowing that he found someone new while I was facing all the judgements of the people that we should face together. And that very moment, he asked forgiveness for what he did. As for me, I accepted it wholeheartedly. Why? Knowing the fact that it all happened seven years ago, I actually saw the sincerity in his eyes while asking me to forgive him.
Following this days after that night, we kept in touch, may it on messenger, video calls, and he also payed visits. And finally on May 20, 2022, we are officially in a relationship for the second time around. "Epic comeback" as what the say. This time, I informed my parents about it and they said that I should be careful. Careful in the sense that I just broke up with ex-boyfriend and prepared myself to fight against the judgements of other people. I confidently faced them all. My parents and Rhed is with me. I don't have anything to worry about.
His vacation days was nearly come to an end. So before that happens, we spent time together to enjoy each others company or with our friends. We attended fiestas, food trips, travels like when we went to Canigao Island Paradise.
The last time we had a moment together was the day before his flight. We had a road trip to sitio Katipunan and had a sight seeing as well.
June 08, 2022, he finally had his flight going back to Manila for work.
Recent Days...
Last October 20, 2022, we celebrated our Fifth Monthsary over a video call. Yes, we are currently working on how to survive the trials of being in a Long Distance Relationship.
Ending Thoughts
There is no such thing of a so-called "Perfect Relationship." Each days of our lives being apart is a battle we need to fight and survive. Some people says, "LDR's can't work." Maybe for some reasons. But as for us, we will try work it on, TOGETHER. After all, I firmly believe with the saying,*** "It takes Two, to Tango."*** (winked)
Thank you for reading.
TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!
<Date Published: 10/30/2022 >
<Author: volleyren20>