I am Charie, a mother. I was born in a southern part of Philippines. In the year 1991 at exactly 3:45am of January 28th. Raised and nourished from young to adulthood. I was the third of the family. We are siblings of four. Two are boys and girls. We have been in many places of the Philippines.
Childhood was not easy. I was the weakest among the group. Failed to do tasks and games. Certainly not winning any games and no scholastics awards except “Most Talkative.” From daycare to grade two. Until we went to Cebu City. We stayed there for good and last for Six years.
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The Turbulence
Life threatening event happened to me. After six years of living in Lapu Lapu City. I was grade four by that time. When I was sleeping early to prepare myself for Philippine Placement test for following day. During sleep, I dreamed that someone so familiar called my name. A flock of flying candles circles and flew away from me. I ran after it shouting. However, no one is sees and listens. I felt like drowning in spiral. Syncope I was lost. Painstakingly I hold my head. I wake up on my mother’s arms. They are crying around me. They thought that they‘d lost me.
We went back to our hometown and stayed for good until I graduated high in years 2011. After the incident, they would never let me sleep alone.
I completed my college, as a teacher from our Towns University is an annex of one of the universities in the southern seas. On 2015. In addition, got my license on the same year.
The secret marriage
A year after I graduate. I found myself a work in Lanao del Norte where I meet my Ex-husband. We secretly married each other in Islamic rites legally. I was 3 months pregnant at that time. In December 2016 when we tie the knot. Without thinking about the future. I marry him for the sake of my daughter’s name. I do not want my child to have broken family. Therefore, I close my eyes and embrace their culture. It was a whirlwind marriage, for the relationship started with a dare. It is merely out a childish game. With no strong love foundation.
As the days, months, and years goes by, I thought we have learned to love each other. For this is their culture: no boy-girl relationships prior to marriage. However, I was wrong. He works away from me. Moreover, he had numerous and various relationships with many different women each year when he was placed to many different places every six months.
Devastated to find out that he had pregnant other woman. It turned me into pieces. Therefore, I left him alone without thinking twice. I brought my child with me and decided to build a new life.
The Training Wheels
In the shadow of penury, young hearts ache, while silent tears of mothers paint a poignant picture of their silent struggles. Being a single parent after five years of marriage is not easy. You have to be strong for your child. Pretend to be okay. I work hard each day to sustain our needs together.
I work as an ESL teacher for about 6 years now. In addition, been with BPO for more than 2 years now. Choosing to work from home. For me to take care my little angel while earning money. She is already in grade one now.
I can feel the hatred in her heart. She never spoke about her father frequently, but when she describes how she hates him, I felt so sad I never dreamed of making her feel that way. However, it is what it is now. You cannot blame me. Her father has never made any efforts just to give a call or give allowances since the day we departed.
Fresh start
Studying Masters and sending my child to school were my top priorities. I worked day and night to get adequate allowances for both of us. Being a single parent is not so easy. Even though sometimes you want to break down and cry. I learned to have a poker face. Where no one ever seen my true feelings.
We travel, we play, and we laugh as we build a new world together as mother and daughter. Each day we heal our wounds by loving each other so dearly.
I was delighted to share a glimpse of my life with you. While we are alleviating the bruises of yesterday. In this blog.
We are grateful to have this type of platform, where we can able vent out, our sentiments, happiness, regrets, and success in life. May this post be the start of a new chapter.
Currently I am attending classes. On my Masters, Master of Arts in Education, I aim to become a Guidance Counselor.
I was focus on building my life together with my daughter. I am positive in all my steps. I am aiming to give the best for my child I work hard every day and every night.
I travel with my family. Making life easier and happy despite of scarcity of life at present.
Giving Thanks
Thank you 
For giving me the opportunity to be a part of this community.
