Time flies so fast and the most awaited months of the year are already here which is BER months. For us Filipinos , the beginning of Christmas is when the BER months started. I have seen a lot of houses already light up thier house by Christmas lights. Christmas song are all over the town playing especially the songs of Josie Marie Chan. Some people already prepared for fruit salad telling that they are excited to the coming Christmas that's why they already prepared some and even do the count down. Indeed BER months is the most wonderful months of the year
When I was a child I am one of the people who were happy when BER months came as I really felt the spirit of Christmas. I don't know what's the magic of BER months from people but they are changing and I really love that not until the day came when my parents separated 2 years ago.
All of the happiness and excitements turned to sadness and envious seeing other people happy on those months. Yeah I know this article is meant to be happy and positive but I can't fake myself not to type what's my experience because of having a broken family. I really want to be happy like we used too but how can I fake myself if deep inside my heart really feel the pain.
Did you know that I am crying while typing this? All the happenings on the past flashback and wishing that it could be happened again. It's been two years since my life has been stopped from the life that I used too. Maybe some of you are not aware of this but my closest friends on read knew about it.
This is our last family picture. The last celebration having a complete family.
Since my parents separated all of the excitement in regards with celebrations fade away. The excitement and happiness before turned into sadness especially for my father who is the most affected of what happened.
I captured this photo last year for the sake of having a picture to be uploaded on social media with a greeting caption but in reality we are just pushing myself to be happy. We are just pushing ourselves to be happy because we can really feel the awkwardness in every celebration when my mother is not around.
But despite of what I felt I still need to remember that I have my son and niece and they are the ones who keep encouraging me to be okay. Just for the sake of them.
My son loves Christmas trees and he always told me to build one like he saw on the baby boss movie. He loves present and he already knows Santa. Next month he will turn 4 years old and for me that's the most remembered and happiest day on BER months for us.
This is my entry for Hive PH September Contest Challenge.
Week 1 (Sept. 4 - 11, 2022) : What does -Ber months mean to Filipinos like you?
I'm sorry for making an entry like this. It is not my intention to write this but as I am typing I carried away with my emotions and ended up writing this. I don't know if it's valid or not so my apology.
But for Filipino , maybe the meaning of BER months is the preparation for Christmas. Like what I said earlier there's a magic happened when BER months came because the people turned positive and looking forward for Christmas but I know not all people including me.