Some people wants to lose some weight. Some people do exercise and even undergo on a procedure just to lose weight a have a fit body. It is so fulfilling when you achieved your goal to have a healthy and fit body but how about losing some weight because of stress? Is that fulfilling and a reason to be happy?
Hello lovely hivers and hivePH community. I hope you are having a good day. Claiming for a healthy body and mind for all of us.
A couple of days ago a few people noticed that I lose weight and I always answered them that it's because of stress but I laughed after I said it.
Jokes are half meant but sometimes its a full truth and I agree. I lose weight because of stress without noticing it.
I grew up not minding my figure. I am blessed to have a slim body even if I eat a lot. I have a chubby cheeks and they always said that my fat goes to my cheeks instead on my body because even if I eat much I am still slim.
Things changed when I became a mom. From a slim body I gained weight because I am a breastfeeding mom. I don't care if I look big as I know I am still beautiful and I need to eat a lot for my son. After a couple of years I just accepted the fact that I have now a new figure like a peared shape tummy and a heavy legs and arms. Until problem came to our families and I because stress and anxious.
Last month is the worst among the worst breakdown I have felt with the four years battling for post partum depression.
I lost my appetite. There are times that I didn't eat the whole day and just drink coffee as my stress reliever. There are times that I eat but I only eat like 3 to 4 spoon and then finish. My husband didn't know about it as I don't want to bother him at all.
I am having a hard time to sleep. Imagine closing your eyes at 12 midnight but you're still awake and over think. As much as I want to sleep I can't because of the thought on my mind.
Overthinking from time to time From the moment I woke up until I go to bed I do overthinking. You know the feeling that you don't want to overthink but you can't control your mind anymore.
Here's my latest selfie that I captured before I wrote this article. Seeing this selfie make me pity for myself. Look at my eyes , it's looks so sad and tired. Even if I smiled, my eyes won't lie that I am not fine. My chubby cheeks still chubby but you can see the difference about my vibes and aura.
Yesterday I bought some stresstabs again because I don't want to be like this. If people didn't noticed that I lose weight I will not realize that I need to love myself again. I looked so old , weak and tired.
Now that we are living here in my in-laws house , I am not tired at all but still stress because of continues thinking about my family. But I am hoping that I can recover with all the problems and challenges that I have faced these past few months.
Thank you for reading.
Here's the selfie that I captured last May. See the difference between the two smile? The vibes and aura are different.