The room was filled with people when I reached there, I think it's hardly half an hour before the news started to spread. I was not much happy about the situation. There was lot of things that I couldn't still understand. I was trapped in some kind of bad mood even before hearing the news, I could see her. She is just right next to her mother, sitting in that sofa. Her eyes were also filled with tears, It's at very rare scenarios I see her like this. She don't smile that much, But she was also not sad.
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It took about a month and half to see her again after her father's death. After her father's death her mother was been hospitalized for a month, her brother left for work cause of his tight schedule. So it took long for her to come back to office. We contacted each other between these days, but it was just incomplete text messages, we both felt gap. Sometimes I felt like I really wanted to see her, but I was not sure about what to do. What if she don't want to see me.
I was a bit busy at office at the day she came, I just glanced at her as she moved towards her desk. I asked her to wait for me in the evening. As I said she was waiting for me near exit.
There's difference in her mannerisms, I could feel some change. But I don't wanted to be part of the emotional game anymore. So I tried to be more pleasant than I usually was. We started walking, for a few minutes I tried asking the general questions about her life was going and her brother. She also answered that questions in a very general manner.
I asked her if she wanted some coffee, I didn't wait for her to reply cause there was a delay from her side. We moved towards the coffee shop, I kind of diverted my direction towards the coffee shop more, that was some kind of a push. We sat down near a corner, the coffee came. Then she talked.
There is something different in her way of talking, I was trying to get an idea of what that really is, After a few minutes I kind of felt like she want to avoid me. I can't clearly see a reason for that. But I kind of felt it, and I also felt like it's not a right time to start a fight. So I just went on with the flow. I don't want it to end bad.
In the night I really started thinking about what she said, she didn't say anything very seriously, but there is always a kind of thought that I am someone who is avoided by everyone at the end. There were moments that proved these thoughts are wrong, but still I didn't wanted to be that guy who becomes a disturbance to others.
From the next day I also started keeping a distance from her. It hurt me, but still for being the person I wanted to be I try to cope with the pain. Then within a few days, there was a big distance between us. Talking to each other become a really hard practice for both of us. It was like two strangers talking, eventually we become strangers.