The first time I ever witnessed a woman in labor, I almost black out. My mom had a friend back then, she was heavily pregnant with her first child, she had just received devastating news about her husband—Which sent her into labor unexpectedly.
As a good child, I wanted to assist my mom, because Aunt Bumi was already pushing the baby. I stood there and watched the baby's head emerge. She was in so much pain, her screams drew our neighbors coming to our house to find out what was happening. I saw everything, including the placenta. After she gave birth. I almost passed out.
During labor, she kept screaming husband's name, her tears were filled with pain and sorrow. Losing a husband and become a single mother afterwards devastating. My mom was crying too as she helped the midwife, who arrived much later. Eventually, they told me to leave so they could focus on helping Aunt Bumi.
To this day, my fear of childbirth is indescribable. Then, the following year we lost a close family friend to childbirth, she and the baby didn't survive. As a child, I often wondered why women chose to get pregnant if it meant risking their own lives or their child's. As little as I was I promised myself never to have kids.
That was then, I still have my fears about labor pains, but as I grew up, I came to understand what it truly meant to be a mother— to nurture, to love and cherish what you and your spouse have created. I finally realized that the result was the goal, not the struggle, and that understanding made me respect all mothers even more. Everytime I see a pregnant woman, I always pray for her safe delivery like that of the Hebrew women in the Bible.
Everything about motherhood is magical—carrying and nurturing a baby inside her body for nine months, Then bringing that baby into the world through her body, then even feeds the baby with her body.
To my mom, this song really reminded me of you. Through the hard times where you had to be strong for us and the moments when you cried, allowing us to see your raw pains, we cried with you. Yet, you have never seemed weak to me. Instead you are my hero. Because despite your fears, you took the challenge of motherhood and brought me into this world.
Of course, as my mother's daughter, I will follow in her footsteps and safely bring my kids into this world as well.
Riley Roth__When God Made You My Mother
The lyrics hit every emotional spot, if truly you love your mother, then you can relate. Mothers are the foundation and backbone of every child's life. Of course every father plays a vital role in a child's life, but mothers are deeply connected in our emotions. The journey of motherhood is truly magical and I hope to experience it someday.
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