It's sad how some humans feel they have the right to walk in and out of anyone's life at any point in time. They rate themselves too highly and treat the other just the way they deem it fit without properly considering the emotional trauma the person they're first hand dealing with will handle the whole drama.
After a long and stressful day at school, I plugged in my AirPods and let YouTube do some song suggestions for me and while they kept coming up with random things, they finally suggested one by Tate McRae that resonated with me. I mean the lyrics of this song feels like what I should write and send to this one person for the audacity of breaking me and thinking they can always come back because somehow, I'm meairquote and I'll always play the nice lady and receive with open arms when they return like the prodigal son.
But I guess that narrative of my life is going to change as I can't keep holding on to one person constantly hurting me and coming back. Life is a journey and in this journey, we meet different calibers of humans. I keep asking myself why I keep holding on to people that break me first but when they're telling the story, they put it all on me calling me bitter for trying to hold on and when I say "okay fine, I'm not going to be bitter anymore" and try to move on, they come back and act as if nothing happened.
Tate's song in the few minutes of listening to it, took me through a story of heartache and healing and I watched my life unfold in those two minutes as I craved quick healing. One can literally feel the piercing pain in the voice of the singer, because it hurts loving someone and at the end of the day, all you get is a heart wreck.
In one way or another, we've all experienced moments when it seems like the world is falling apart, when the very people we counted on let us down. It's during these times that we feel like we've been broken, that the pain is too much to bear. But after giving it deep thoughts, I realized that it's in these moments precisely that we have the opportunity to discover our own inner strength, spread out our wings, flap high, fly and then soar in the direction the wind leads.
I thought of myself as the main character in my own song, and life as the ever changing melody that accompanies my journey. The challenges I've faced are more like the verses of my story, the heartaches and disappointments serving as crucial plot points to craft a beautiful song. It's important to remember that every time we're pushed to the brink, we have a choice to make. Either to let the pain define us or to use it as a stepping stone toward something greater.
While pondering on different things to do moving forward, my mind kept reminding me of this:
"Don't let people who broke you and are probably living their best lives, make you stop yours halfway. Despite the depths of heartbreak and despair, remember that you are the composer of your own melody. The melody may change, and the tune may evolve, but it's all part of your journey."
I have to constantly remind myself that when life's waves threaten to overwhelm me, it's only wise to embrace the challenge. The pain of yesterday can become the strength of tomorrow, and my life's song will continue to inspire not only me but those who listen to my music.
In every heartache, I believe there's an opportunity for healing. In every setback, there's a chance for a comeback. Keep writing your own lyrics, and let your life's song be the blissful rhythm that emerges from adversity.
With love. Teknon✨
PS: This is not about an intimate relationship.