My mending heart misses a beat
And spews trickles of blood
Through its fragile seams
When I hear a voice I think is yours
Or I see someone that talks like you
When I hear our songs blaring in the streets
Or I touch the scars we made together
We were two depressed souls
In love in the midst of the gloom
But even love couldn't cure nothing
We just wanted out
But this time we wanted out together
Out after spending the last few weeks
In a world way different from what we knew
A world of happy
Of careless abandon and reckless adventure
Bike rides through the most dangerous routes
Getting drunk in the middle of the day
And the craziest dares at midnight
We puffed and pricked and got high
To dance wild
Not a single care, no caution, no guilt
These were our last days
And we will be ready for the hell below
We wanted to bleed out together
Blades and coke and crae records to boost
But something had changed
I didn't want out no more
I wanted life
And I wanted it with you
You knew
Damnit! You knew!
And before I could say jack
Blood was flowing from everywhere
You cut like a mad man
Your neck, arms, thighs, chest
All I saw was red
They tried so hard to save you
But I knew it was futile
You never left loose ends
So now I am stuck
In a world without you
And without the courage to get out
All because you felt I deserved a chance
I can only hope you were right
And that I would not be your next cell mate
In the depths of hell