If hell could open its door wide, right in front of us, I’m not sure if it could serve us a better entrance than the one we had this past week. My head is still spinning, anxiety at peak 24/7 and my thought processes ever so slow…
It’s been tough, but I do wanna talk about it. Because repressing all these nightmares only brings more anxiety in the future and that’s one thing I don’t want more of in my life 🙃 Maybe I won’t bore you with ALL the details. Maybe I’ll sit down and write more on my main account, but at least a few things I need to get off my chest right now.
I talked about a bitter sweet reconciliation with my brother with whom I haven’t talked to for over 3 years. Partly to save money, partly to make up after all those years, we decided to travel to the funeral together by car and also with his partner and daughter.
As a result we spend 4 maybe 5 times more… who knows 🤷🏻♀️ Simply because the journey wasn’t so smooth. We crashed the car in the middle of Germany, soon after midnight. Literally a few hours after I posted my last actifit report.
We had it towed to the nearby carpark for a hefty price that would already cover both of our plane tickets.
Then we had to spend hours on the phone to various insurance companies (as if 1 could not deal with everything), only to find out we had to deal with everything on our own anyway. We had to also sleep in the crashed car, bother our dad to leave home a day earlier (him and mum were also coming to the funeral) and drive extra 500km to pick us up and come up with a broken car story, which would be easier to digest for all the funeral attendants than the actual crash.
On the bright side (cause the bright side was there too), we did arrive at the funeral in one piece. The weather was beautiful that day and it was a beautiful funeral attended by many people from close and further family, as well as friends, neighbours, colleagues and a representation from Polish army, saluting my uncle on his last journey.
I’m at the airport now, coming back home and the tears are rolling on my cheeks as I type this. Best to leave the rest of the story for another day. Despite the tough times it was an active ‘holiday’. I made sure to drag either auntie or mum for a walk. Physical activity is by far the only sure way I found to deal with stressful situations and it’s available for pretty much everyone.
My mum moaned and resisted the walk, but she also moaned she doesn’t feel well. I told her she won’t feel better by laying on the sofa, smoking and watching tv… eventually she gave in and went for that walk with me. The weather was perfect and I think both of us came back home in slightly higher spirits after 5km + walk in the sun.
Now to fly back home…
Until next walk 💙
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Height157 kg |  | Weight72 kg |  | Body Fat% |  |
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