"In My Nightmares" is a song I created to let out some pent up teenage rage. It's not often that I get to share something so raw and open with the audience. It's just phenomenal how putting one's feelings down on paper and having the absolute privilege of being able to share them in my music with
It was written as I was writing a series of songs, 3 all together that all just poured out at the same time. They all came to me during a nap, so maybe I should be encouraged to take more naps!
They are all vastly different, each song drawing inspiration from Taylor Swift, To Skunk Anansi and Alanis Morrissette to 80s Glam Rock.
In my nightmares may be relatable to a lot of women, young and old, who had their choices taken away from them. I want you to know you are not alone. This song was damn scary to sing and share in front of a live audience as you never know how people are going to respond to explicit lyrics.
But this song is mine, it's about me and grabbing my power back. It's about healing and acknowledging that anger is a huge part of that process.
I'm so grateful I got the chance to share it live.
"In My Nightmares," (Claire Mobey) - Mobey Dick - live at Andy's Club, Take 2
You, smoked the air right out of my lungs
And while I was drowning your hand pushed me down
You, sucked the lifeforce from my veins
(The love and the innocence, My kindness and brilliance)
You gave me the gun
Ooooh
And in my nightmares I can
Call you each out by name
And I've carried this shame
All my life I've felt this pain
All that's left is to forgive
All the shitty things you did
But you don't fucking deserve it, yet
No you don't fucking deserve it, yet
I, smashed my glass against the wall
I self sabotaged I felt so fucking small
I, felt I'd nothing left to give
(The love and the innocence, my kindness and brilliance)
I became right undone
Woooah
And in my nightmares I can
Call you each out by name
And I've carried this shame
All my life I've felt this pain
All that's left is to forgive
All the shitty things you did
But you don't fucking deserve it, yet
No you don't fucking deserve it, yet
You, took away my right to choose
I thought I had nothing left to lose
I, stooped so low I can't forget
(The love and the innocence, My kindness and brilliance)
You broke me for fun
Woah
And in my nightmares I can
Call you each out by name
And I've carried this shame
All my life I've felt this pain
All that's left is to forgive
All the shitty things you did
But you don't fucking deserve it, yet
No you don't fucking deserve it, at all
No you don't fucking deserve it, at all.
Noteworthy and special thanks to Skunk Anansi and Alanis Morrissette for their inspiration and for opening the door for girls and women to feel empowered and inspired to take their lives back. It's more than fine to feel anger and you don't have to be good and pretty all the time